Last night I went to bed a little before 8pm. I was kinda hurting. My head was spinning. I was washing dishes after dinner and then for a split second, the room started to turn on me. I wanted to work on the photobooth pix from Friday night at 923 but they can wait another day. So I tried to sleep. I kept waking up every few hours. And everytime I'd wake up, I'd be soaked in sweat. I wasn't even sleeping on my bed. It was my sister's bed. hahahaha. She'll have a surprise when she comes back home. My room was too hot so I decided to sleep in my sister's room. I do that from time to time. I dunno why my room is so hot.
I bought some new conditioner yesterday. It seems like everything I do to my hair doesn't work. My hair is extra dry all the time. At least the ends are. And then the roots are extra oily. I think it's cuz I sweat so much that it takes all the moisture away from the ends and all the sweat gets absorbed in the roots. I dunno....someone with hair, help me out here.
Shanel wrote a blog. I think it's been 2 years since her last post. Hahahahaha.
This weekend was a damn good one. Thank you to everyone who came out Friday night to support 9five. We didn't expect the turnout to be that good. The photobooth was crazy. At the end of the night, there was close to 3000 pix. I wanna give a shout out to my favorite engineer for coming that night. It really made my night that you were there. 143. (: You got mail coming.
I'm back to not eating meat. Family parties, friends b-days, and dates are the exception though. But I am eating seafood.
I slept for maybe 2 hours last night/this morning. It was too damn hot. It was so hot yesterday that I had to shave. Yeah, shave. Take a wild guess as to what I shaved. Hahahahaha. Don't think anything dirty.
B-ball with the cousins tonight and NBA playoffs. I love it.
Last night I came up on $172. It was the final night of bowling league and we got 3rd place. 3rd place got $55. The team that had the highest scratch score for the season got $55. The person that got the highest scratch score for the season got $40. And I forget what the other $22 was for. But yeah, I wasn't expecting to get that much money. (:
So in 2 weeks, summer bowling league starts. Who wants to join? The rest of my team is taking the summer off. I need to form a new team.
My friend Norey recently started a food blog. It's awesome!!!! Check it out when you get a chance http://tastersdelight.tumblr.com/ She's always taken pix of food so it was the next logical step. (:
The past 2 days have been insane. At the stroke of midnight on Sat (or should I say Sun), me and Bobby were at Super Sergios to order some carne asada fries. Hahahahaha. I was that eager to eat something uber delicious. So I tried to down a whole plate by myself but the carne asada won. And then during Easter day, I scarfed down some Churches Chicken, Taco Bell tacos, and my Mom's homemade Nilaga. All that meat gave me a "meat headache". It's very similar to an ice cream headache.
I couldn't sleep that night because of all the carnivorous treats. I think I went to bed around 4am. And then I woke up at 630am. So 2 and a half hours of sleep and then work. Surprisingly, I wasn't that tired. Maybe the meat has special powers? Hahahahaha.
Yesterday I had chicken curry, bbq pork, and longonisa for lunch. And then I had pho for dinner. I think I might overdose if I don't cut back. I already feel like I gained 5 lbs in 2 days. I said I'd go on a vegetarian diet starting next Monday. It might have to start earlier. Hahahaha.
I decided to cruise out last night to downtown for an event Hundred Percent was throwing. It was over at C7, formerly known as Submission which was formerly Jade. There were a bunch of name changes for a reason. And last night was one of the reasons. It was pure BOLSHLEVIKS!!!!!!
We got there early to make sure everything got set up properly. Everything was goin ok until about 10pm, which is pretty damn early still. And then the place decides to stop letting anyone in and they kicked everyone out. We were outside having business discussions when all this occurred. Everyone that was inside was now just chillin' outside. I guess they told them it was a fire drill or something? BOLSHLEVIKS!!!!!!!!
What really happened, or what we were told, was that an undercover cop came to the place and they were selling liquor with a jacked up liquor license. So they had to shut the whole place down and take the liquor off the shelves and store them in the back. I swear, there's someone out there making sure we get screwed every time. We got people hatin' on us for no damn reason.
And this was my first night out in a long time. I was hoping to have fun, but this whole ordeal killed it for me. FML.
Yesterday I got a card in the mail. Like real mail. Not email. Hahahaha. It was from my favorite engineer. I love her to death and I was excited to see mail from her when I got home. My bro was standing over my shoulder watching me open it up to see what it was. Hahahaha. Getting mail is like X-mas to me. Real mail, not like credit card bills or junk mail. Mail from people I know. Or even packages. I love it when packages arrive even though I know what's in it cuz I ordered it. But the excitement of opening it up gets me all hyped up every time.
For anyone who's sent me mail recently, I plan on sending something back just for fun. I hope the excitement you give to me will carry over onto to you. (:
I went to bed at 11pm last night. I just wanted to see what would happen if I got 8 hours of sleep. Well......I didn't find out. I woke up this morning at 3am. I guess I'm just so used to sleeping 4-5 hours a night and my body just decided to wake up. I normally sleep around 1-2am and wake up around 6ish. Damn me.
I was watching youtube yesterday and I watched some wrestling clips. It was clips of all the mess ups and accidents that happen in wrestling. And then I had a dream about watching wrestling and in the match, one of the dudes arm gets ripped off. It was not pretty. I need to stop watching that kind of stuff. I really don't like seeing people get hurt.
On another note, on my way home from bowling I saw an accident. I didn't actually see it occur but I arrived at the scene maybe a minute right after it happened. The people were getting out of their cars and starting to take pictures of the mess and talk to each other and what not. There were witnesses pulled over and people discussing what happened so I left. It was at the stoplight right by my house.
Speaking of bowling, we are officially out of first place. If we won 4 games last night, we would have been in contention. But we only won 2. There's 4 games left and we're 6 behind. And it doesn't help that I bowled horrible. The first game was a 187. The 2nd was 161. And the 3rd was a 137. Not good. If I was in the 180's in all 3 games, we would of had a chance. Next week is the last week so I guess we're bowling for 3rd place. But I did get the top score for the season (not unless someone tops me next week) so I'm happy about that. (:
I finally did my taxes last night. I'm gettin' back around 800 smackeroos. Not bad.
I washed my truck on Sunday. Does anyone think it'll rain this week? Hahahaha. For reals, though. It might rain this week.
My laptop is officially dying. It takes about 20 minutes to boot up. I think the motherboard is burnt out. It was 9 good years and it's time to move on. I've been holding off on getting a MacBook Pro since I had a perfectly fine, functioning laptop already. Now that perfectly fine, functioning laptop is no longer perfectly fine and functioning. But I don't think imma buy that MacBook yet since I got some bills to take care of.
I was reading through my old Xanga last night and it's pretty funny. Did I really think that before? I was gay. Hahahahaha.
I ate meat this weekend!!!! But I said from the get-go that I would when my Lola's death anniversary was coming around, so it's no surprise. But it felt sooooooooo good. I got a taste of the forbidden fruit/meat and now I want more. I'm craving it. I spent so much time to make myself strong and now I'm back to square one. Hahahahaha. But it was well worth it. I started the day off by not eating meat cuz I was so used to it. But when they started the prayer, I felt like it was ok to eat meat and I dove right in. The first bite was heaven. The texture of meat was something I haven't felt in what seemed like a year. Hahahahaha. I don't even think I ate that much but the meat filled me up differently. My stomach felt all huuuuuuuuge after my first plate. I dunno if my stomach shrank or if the meat was magically expanding after it passed through my intestines.
The past two weekends have been a blast because I got to spend it with my family. My cousins that don't live in SD are just crazy and I like that. It brings my craziness level up a notch when I'm with them. Hahahahaha. I wish we all lived close to each so we could kick it all the time.
We're 4 games behind 1st place in bowling league and there's 12 games left in the season. I think we can take it. Last week, we swept the competition and tonight I hope we do the same. Tonight we play the last place team but you can't overlook anybody. The last time we played them, they took 1 game from us and it really hurt our confidence.
With 3 weeks left in bowling season, I'm trying to round up my friends to join me for next season. I don't wanna hop onto some random team again. This season I got lucky cuz the team that picked me up happened to be really good. So far, Richard is down to join and possibly Jay. Any other takers? I want next season to be really fun. Let's do this.
To make up for the fact that I ate some dairy the past few days, I've decided to give up soda for the rest of Lent as well. I noticed that I've been drinking alot of soda lately so that should even things out.
I gotta get back to eating more veggies and fruits. I kinda strayed away for a little but I'll be back. =)
So my Vegan Experiment failed. This past week was kinda tough and my will power was slightly weakened. When we were at my Aunt's viewing, the only food there were snacks like cheese rolls, hopia, toron, empanada, suman, etc. And we were there for like 5 hours and I got hungry so I ate some cheese rolls. FAIL. And then after the viewing we went to my Uncle's house and they had pizza and pasta and I ate that too. I ate the cheese pizza though. I still haven't eaten any meat. Only dairy.
Thanks to everyone for giving me their support and helping me be strong and trying to get me back on my feet. I'll be out of my cave soon.
I had to get away from all the things happening so I went out of town for the weekend. I was up in Pomona for Sportsfest with HTC. It was very therapeutic for me. I had so much fun that it made me forget about what was going on at home. I needed that because I was beating myself up inside. It was eating away at me. I couldn't take it. My state of mind was unstable. I was ready to cry at any given second. If someone mentioned something that reminded of the situation, I could immediately feel the tears begin to well in my eyes. Now I think I'm getting close to being normal. I could talk about the situation and still keep my composure.
But I still have alot of decisions to make. This whole ordeal made me realize that maybe I'm not spending my time wisely. Right now, I'm ready to abandon things that I've worked really hard for. I just don't wanna make any decisions based on emotions. I wanna cool off and let level heads prevail. I'm gonna spend a couple weeks away from all my extra curricular activities and weigh out their importance to me.
I'm at work and I'm still crying. I just can't control it. When people pass by and ask if I'm ok, it makes me cry even more.
I'm eating everything in sight. I have no self control right now.
I'm feeling extra guilty cuz there were multiple opportunities for me to visit my Aunt in the hospital and I didn't. Last Saturday, I went to the club because I put business ahead of family. Last Sunday, I shot @ House Of Blues because once again I put business ahead of family. And on Tuesday I was bowling and I put myself ahead of family. I feel really selfish right now. Those 3 days, my whole family went to visit her in the hospital and I didn't. My priorities aren't straight. My family should be ahead of any of the things I do. And now it's too late. I realized that too late.
I really feel like giving up all the extra curricular things I'm doing. I need some time to get my head straight.
I got a call this morning from my cousin. He knows what hours I work and he wouldn't call unless it's super important....
I can't even cry anymore. I ran out of tears. My eyes burn from all the crying.
I don't even know how to deal with this situation. It happened last year and now it's happening again. Around the same time. We were gonna go and celebrate my Lola's one year death anniversary in a few weeks. Now my Aunt gets to go and see her again.
When the birds are chirpin', ask the birds what they're saying. Don't listen to the white noise in the background. Go directly to the source. It'll save everyone a lot of trouble.
I've been wearing a back brace all week. My back still hurts but not as much as before. I'm able to sleep better now. And this back brace really helps when I'm running. I've been running everyday when I get home from work now. And it's flat ground and it feels so much easier compared to that hill I used to do at work. I can run 2 miles and still feel ok. Before, half a mile was killer.
I've been stretching alot, even if I don't exercise. All my muscles seem very tight, especially my hamstrings. My back, calves, quads, and even my abs feel like I've done a rigorous workout.
I tried sleeping early last night. Like at 8pm. I kept waking up every few hours. It's hard to get a good night's sleep when you're in pain.
My friends have been telling to go get checked up. Last time I went to the doctor about my back, they told me to do all these stretches/poses/positions and asked me if there was any pain when I did them. It was stuff like "lift your leg forward keeping your knee straight" or "turn side to side", etc. But it wasn't anything painful. I could do all that stuff no problem. But when it gets to physical activity, that's when the pain kicks in. Also when I'm in a prolonged position like sitting down or laying down, I can start to feel the pain. But the doctors just told me to lose weight, since it seems like my body can't support the weight I was at. I know they're probably right and I'm working on that as we speak. So I see no point in going to the doctor yet. I just gotta deal with the pain for now.
Buying a house is a lengthy process. So far, I have clue on what the hell is going on and it's my bro handling everything. I don't wanna make him handle all that so I'm starting to read up on mortgages, down payments, loans, pre-qualify/pre-approvals and realtors and all that jazz that goes into buying a house. We already met with a loan officer and my bro did all the talking. I was just there. :(
Last night, we dominated the 1st place team. We took 3 of the 4 games. And we needed it. We're currently in 6th place for the 2nd half of the season(but 3rd place in overall) and we haven't won that many games lately. We have 4 weeks left and we need to go on a hot streak to capture 1st. I'm starting to find my groove and I'm hoping to keep that momentum going into next season. But for next season, I want to have my friends join me instead of me just hoping onto a random team like this season. So far Richard and Jay are willing to join me. We need a 4th person, but I don't know who's willing to bowl. Hit me up if you're down. Jay and Richard are good bowlers. Richard is probably the best out of us. And me and Jay are at about the same level. Don't worry if you suck cuz your handicap will make up for it.
I do have the highest score in the season so far. I scored a 264 a little while back on pure luck. But we do get prizes (I think cash prizes) at the end of the season, for those who hold records. That'd be sick if my team (X-Factor) goes on a hot streak and we end up getting first and I also get the league high score. I think we can do it. The 10 pin was my Achilles and I've learned how to control the "back-up" ball to convert it. And I was the one holding my team back. My scores are the lowest and we always lose by a few points. So now that I'm hittin' it, we're winning!!!
1st place team won 1 game last night so their total is now 32 games won. We won 3 games so we're at 20. 12 games behind with 16 games to play. GAME TIME!!!!
Last night I went to dinner for a friend's b-day and it was tough. Being on this vegan diet, you need special treatment if the people you are out with aren't eating the same stuff as you. I hate that fact. I never really knew it until last night. It was a pain. They had to get out a separate menu just for me. I don't like being a hassle.
Another decision I have made is to eat whatever is being served on Apr. 3. That day is my Lola's 1 yr death anniversary. We're going up to San Jose to visit the rest of my family and gather together to pay respects to my Lola. And after last night's experience, I will be respectful to the rest of my family and eat whatever it is that is being served. I know I gave all this stuff up for Lent but this is a conscious decision I am making and I don't feel like I'm letting myself down for this occasion. I'm not making excuses just to eat meat, cuz I know I can do this vegan thing for as long as I want to. If I set my mind to it, anything(within reason) is possible.
I am also no longer gonna be running at work on my lunch breaks. Since the time change, I think that the sun will still be out at 630pm so I can run at that time. I've also been wanting to get back into playing basketball on a weekly basis. Me and my three younger cousins used to play 2 or 3 times a week and it was a good bonding session. Since I'm the eldest in the group, I talk to them about girls and doing the right thing and all kinds of random scenarios. I know they look up to me and I try to be a good example. I try to give them the best advice possible. I also like to play "no mercy" and take them to the hole strong. My brother did that to me and it got me to be better so I'm passing on the knowledge.
My back has still been hurting. I think it is one of two things: a herniated disc or sciatica. I'm leaning towards sciatica since I have felt this before and it's gone away after a few weeks. It's been about 2 weeks now and if it stays for a 3rd week, I'm going to the doctor. Maybe.
This morning I was ironing my shirt and I set the iron down. And as I went to flip my shirt over, something bad happened. I guess my shirt kinda got caught on the ironing board and I happened to knock the iron off the edge of the board. And if any of you know me, I have a tendency to catch things when they're falling. I dunno, it's just my natural instinct. I see something falling and I do my best to save it, regardless of what it is. I've smashed many toes and jammed many fingers trying to do this. But an iron is hot! Luckily it happened so fast and the shirt was still in my hand that I didn't see the iron falling. Otherwise, I'd be getting treated for 2nd degree burns right now.
Did I mention that I have the urge to fight people now? I dunno if it's my diet and me being irritated at the fact that I'm not eating what my mind desires, but my temper has been on a good one lately. Chemical imbalance? I haven't actually fought anyone, but if someone says the wrong thing...I'm ready.
So last night we had an online meeting, since everyone couldn't meet in person. So we're discussing our game plan for promoting and Barry asked where we wanna go to promote? Barry mentioned hittin' up D&B's parking lot Thursday night. But then Raul starts complaining that we can't even promote during the day so why are we even gonna try at night? He said we'd get arrested if we get caught puttin' flyers on cars. I jokingly told him to take one for the team. And Dustin says he'll even wear a ninja outfit and help him. This is all joking around. And then Raul gets all heated and then logs off.
So we're talking about other places to hit up and I suggest going to Conchings since I saw all these flyers on their walls and on top of their trash bins. And then Raul comes back and says thats a stupid idea. So I ask him what he suggests? And he starts saying that this is 1st grade shit. And then he stops talking to the rest of us for a few minutes. So we're discussing other places to hit up. And then we were talking about hittin' up colleges and puttin' shit up on bulletin boards and what not. Brea says her school is strict on flyers since "someone" bombed the place with flyers last time. So I told her what about going through proper channels and asking for permission to post stuff. This is where Raul comes back and says "WTF!!!!!!! You tell her to go through proper channels and you want me to take one for the team and get arrested!!!!!!! You think this is all a joke. I guarantee you would not last one day if you went out there and tried to do this shit!!!!!!!!!" And then he started going off saying this is why our shit is weak. No one knows jack shit and if it was up to him, he'd cut all our promoters.
I don't even remember everything that happened in the meeting cuz I was pissed. I don't have a problem with someone saying the things he did.....but he's never said anything like that in person. Every time we have face to face meetings, Raul is pretty damn quiet and doesn't really give too much input. But in online meetings, he's all high and mighty. He rules the world when he's behind a computer screen. He's the Internet Gangsta.
I'm thinking of taking Yoga or Pilates or something of the sort. I really don't want to get stronger but I want to be more flexible. I might just get those dvd's since I don't exactly have all the time in the world to go to these classes. My friend Drea offered to take classes with me, if I decide to go. It's a little bit of a motivating factor to know someone is willing to do it with me.
I went to bed at 10pm last night. I woke up at 4am feeling tired so I went back to sleep and woke up at 7. I still felt tired. Damn.
8 hours of sleep in the past 48 hours. Some people get more sleep in one day than I do in 2 days. I think this should have been a New Years Resolution for me: Get an adequate amount of sleep/rest. I think I'm going to make it a priority from now on. It's the next step for me. Eating right, exercising, and now sleep/rest. I'm taking baby steps to realize what I need to do and how to get there. Better late than never.
Hahahaha. So I'm goin' the the Busta Rhymes concert tonight @ HOB to do some photo coverage. It's pretty dope that I'm getting to go to concerts for free in exchange for coverage. And I guess I'll also be writing a review of his performance for the Hundred Percent website.
I'm lookin' forward to goin' to a bunch of concerts.
I ran today and my back still hurts. It's not as painful as last week. I've been stretching every night and I think it's helping loosen it up. I think I should be back to form by next week. I can run now, but I just gotta fight the pain.
And if anyone happens to be friends with this girl, let me know cuz I want to get in contact with her.
So last night I got a friend request on Facebook from one of my friends parents. I thought it was the weirdest thing. I'm usually on my best behavior when I'm around parents and all the pictures I have posted on there aren't exactly parent friendly. I think it might be time to possibly delete my account or make it private. I dunno. We'll see. I spend too much time on it anyways. I need to be more productive instead of looking at other peoples pictures all day.
I almost failed on my first day. I went through the entire day not eating any kind of animal product. And then when I got home around 1130pm, I was hungry was as hell and I wanted to eat. So I looked through the cupboards and found some oatmeal. I picked the flavor that sounded the best and I started to make it. When it was done, I was savoring the smell. Mmmmm. Peaches and cream. And then as I was about to put the first spoonful in my mouth, I thought to myself that the cream smells soooooo damn good. And then I hesitated. What the hell is cream made out of? So I grabbed the box and read the ingredients. Product contains Milk and Soy!!!!!!!!!! Milk is an animal product. DAAAAAAAAAAAMNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!! I came about 3 inches from failing miserably.
Our plan is to have some friends go to certain shops and ask for 9five glasses. Places like Surf Hut in Imperial Beach, Emerald City in Coronado, and Urban Nation in Chula Vista. Say something like "I saw this company called 9five and they make sunglasses. Those glasses are dope and I wanna buy some. I was wondering if you guys carried them?" So if you're reading this and you happen to visit any of those shops, please ask for 9five. We're trying to get them to carry our shades. And if anyone has a Willy's Workshop hookup, put in the word there too.
The Vegan Experiment begins today. And I am officially a dumbass. All the stuff I prepared last night.....I left it on the table this morning. Yeah. Dumbass.
It's a good thing I have a bunch of cucumbers and carrots and oranges at my desk. I also have a bag of potatoes in my ride. I'll be eating all that today.
My back is starting to feel a little better. I think I'll walk today. I just don't want to get out of the habit of exercising everyday cuz I know it'll be hard for me to get back in the groove of things.
My mind feels weak already, just knowing that I won't be eating any kind of animal product.
It was not a good idea to run yesterday. Not with my back pain. I didn't even come close to where I usually make it. I walked most of the way. I'm not gonna run today. I'm not gonna run until my back starts feelin' better.
So I'm on a meat binge today. It is Fat Tuesday.
It was either go vegetarian/vegan or give up pr0n. I think imma try goin' vegan. Those are two hard things for me to do but I think goin' vegan might be beneficial in what I'm trying to do with my life right now.
There's this girl I've been kickin' it with and talking to on a daily basis. I'm not really into her but we have fun and all, but last night she showed me pix of her Mom. And betcha by golly, WOW!!!! She looks alot like her Mom but the Mom is so much better in every aspect. In 3 or 4 more years, I can see her growing into becoming more like her Mom. If her Mom is a glimpse of the future, I might want to get with her now!!!! And she told me people just think that they're sisters. Her Mom does look very young. Actually, she is very young. Hahahahaha. Mid 30's.
I couldn't sleep last night. I had this shooting pain from my lower back into my left ass cheek that went down the entire back of my thigh. It felt like I got stabbed in the lower back and as the knife was inside me, someone dragged it down all the way to the back of my knee. I kept trying to massage it to try to make the pain go away but it was no use. I probably fell asleep at 4am. That was after I began to punch the back of the leg to get it go numb from pain. I woke up not feeling that much pain so hopefully it went away. I've felt this feeling before but it was never as bad as it was last night.
You all know that me and the doctor don't get along very well so I know what you're gonna say and I'm not going. I'm gonna fight this until I can't anymore...
I said yesterday I was gonna go out with this girl, but I was gonna visit her friend before I went and got her. I was just saying that and not thinking I would actually do it. It was a thought that crossed my mind. There are a lot of things I say and think but never actually do. This one wasn't one of them. But it almost didn't happen....
So here's how it went down: I told this girl I was getting home from work around 6:30ish and I'd just grab some stuff and head on out. I said I'd hit her up when I'm on my way. So I hit her up and she said she's not ready yet. So I asked her how much longer she needed cuz I was already driving and she said she still needed to do her hair and make-up, but she can do it real quick. So I said 30 minutes? I told her to do what she's gotta do and I was gonna go take care of something real quick and to hit me up when she's ready.
So I had a little time to kill and I was driving around. And I remembered about her friend. I didn't have her friends number though. The friend was supposed to go out with me but she had work(or so she said)....so I thought I'd drop by her work and visit her. So I got into the parking lot at her work and someone texted me. I thought it was the girl who I was taking out, maybe she's ready now. But it was from a number I didn't know. I open the message and it says "Hey, it's 'INSERT-NAME-HERE'." It's from the girl that I'm going to visit. And I'm in the parking lot of her work. WTF!?!?!?!?!?! So I text her back asking if she's at work. By this time, I'm opening the door to her work. I saw her sitting there on her phone and there were a few customers around. She didn't notice me at first since she was still looking at her phone but when I got closer she jumped out of her seat and yelled my name. She had this look of shock on her face. Hahahahaha. And she says "That was quick!!!!!!!!" (That's what she said. Hahahahahaha) So we're chattin' it up and she's totally ignoring all the customers. Hahahahaha. I would have stayed with her longer but the girl I was gonna take out hit me up and said she was ready.
So I went and got this girl. We went to a good spot and had a good time laughing and chatting and doing whatever. We went out to eat after and I told her a lot of things I probably shouldn't have. And the whole time I was bumpin' slow jams in my ride. Planting seeds. Hahahahahaha. Maybe I'll see her again tonight.
I woke up feelin' like major crap this morning. I don't think I can hold down any food. I felt like yacking but I didn't even have anything to yack up. I have no desire to eat right now. My stomach just feels weird. My throat feels weird too. I'm just trying to drink alot of water so whatever is in my system will get flushed out. Damn me.
I had an agenda with someone tonight. We'll see if it still goes down. She seems excited for what we're gonna do. More excited than me. I'm actually kinda nervous. I dunno why. I'm more into her friend than I am into her. I didn't tell her but I was planning on visiting her friend before we do our thing. Jerk status.
It was raining the past few days and I usually go running on my lunch breaks. Since it was raining, I didn't bother running cuz I'm already sick and I don't wanna get even sicker. So I've been going to the stairwell and playing guitar. Now that it's not raining, I still wanna play guitar. I'm getting back into the groove of playing. I haven't played in a long while and I miss it. I just neglected it and now that I'm back, I don't wanna leave. It's kind of like running into an ex and remembering the good times you shared. Playing music just makes me happy. And running is a pain. I hate running! With a passion! Damn! But music, it's so beautiful.
But I will run today. I need to. It's not a "want", but more of a "need". Music is a "want". And you don't "need" everything you "want".
After work today, I'm gonna stop by Balboa Park to go hunting for sweet spots to shoot at. I want to practice my craft more. I want to get better. Who wants to be my model?
Man, I totally needed to fart at work today...so I just let it out. It was silent.....but then after a couple seconds, it started to really stink. Oh man. It was pretty bad. I was all afraid of what my coworkers would think so I had to act quickly to try to cover up the smell. The first thing in my line of site was a bag of oranges. And guess what? I started to peel one open. The smell of oranges is very overwhelming. And it did the trick. Thank goodness for oranges. Hahahahahaha.
So for some reason the other day, I decided to watch this video that pointed all the cons of pr0n. Why it's degrading to women. I wanted to see their perspective on why they hated pr0n so much and what could be so degrading. After all, these women chose to be in the movies. It was their choice.
As you all know, I love me some pr0n. I watch it on a weekly basis. And sometimes when I'm feelin' extra lonely, on a nightly basis. Well, this video was a 4 part series and it had former pr0n stars, glorified sluts, and a current pr0n star. They interviewed all of them and it was pretty fascinating to hear their perspectives. It kinda changed my mind on pr0n. Now, I'm not gonna stop watching it....but I am aware of the darker side of pr0n. Imma stick to the lighter side. It's still entertaining.
I'm kinda glad I didn't really tell anyone what I was gonna do for Valentines. Cuz if I did, I'd have to be explaining to everyone why it didn't happen. The story of my life.
I guess you can all it a raincheck. I wasn't expecting her to go out in the first place so I'm not too disappointed. I wasn't even expecting myself to ask her. The thought came across my head the night before and the next day we happened to be shootin' the shiite and I thought to myself "Ask her if she wants an Anti-Valentines date? Something where we could do stuff that a couple would NOT do on a day like this. And something that would be destructive and fun (and legal) at the same time." I just didn't want to be alone on this day.
Now, I told you I wasn't really into this girl. It's more like a "kick it" buddy where we can just do random shiite and have fun. This is probably more of someone who can help me realize what I want. Cuz I'll tell her shiite about girls and myself or whatever and she'll tell me I'm being ridiculous. So don't get it twisted. It's like a dude with a girl's perspective.
So later on that night I ended up going to downtown with the "Stripper Twins", "Roel", and "Barry". It was kind of a lame night until the end. All the girls that were out were drunk out of their damn minds. Stumblin', dancing like crazy whores, and just being sloppy. Not good. Or real good, depending on what you're after. Hahahahaha. But we hit up a few spots and scoped out the scene and we ran into my mortal enemy, aka The Vamp, and he totally pretended like I wasn't around. Crazy tranny lover. Hahahahaha. I'm thinking I should be the mature one and squash all the beef, but it's kinda fun knowing that someone hates my guts so much to the point that they're watching my every move. I wanna live it up a little bit longer and then if we ever have to do business with one another, I'll squash it. But yeah, we ended the night at Subway for a 5........5 dollar.......5 dollar foot loooooooong! Hahahahaha. Drunken madness when ordering a damn footlong. I can't even explain what we were doing but we were messing with the sandwich artists asking them to make ridiculous sandwiches. It was one of those "you had to be there" moments. And I wasn't even drunk. And might I add that was my first time at Subway. Hahahahahahaha.
Oh yeah, on Saturday I got my rims back and I washed my truck and now it's raining. My prophecy comes true once again. You can't lose with 22's.
I'm excited that the sunglasses company that I work for has it's very 1st buyer!!!!! Some skate shop in New Jersey placed an order with us. Exciting times.
We haven't received our full stock yet. All we have so far are the prototypes but we've been getting a lot of good responses from people. Can't wait to get this shiite rollin'......
So I kinda have a Valentines date....or I should say Anti-Valentines date. I found someone who hates this day as much as I do. Or not really hate, but feel like it's cliche'. It's not really set in stone yet, but I unveiled my plan to her and she seemed excited for it. I guess you can say it's what you would do if you hated the world, but in a controlled sense. I'll tell you all what it is after it happens, if it happens.
Now, I'm not really attracted to this girl, in the physical sense. If there was a big crowd of girls, she is not one that would stand out to me. But I have a lot of fun when I'm with her. And that's what matters. I'm just lookin' to have a good time and I know when I'm around her, the good times will be there. I'm not saying I want to be with this girl, cuz I'm not sure if I'm ready for anything like that. And I'm pretty damn sure she doesn't wanna be with me, but I know she enjoys every second of madness when we're going berzerk around each other. Another thing is I hardly know anything about her. I've been around her and I talk to her and I know how she'll react to certain things but I don't actually "know her" know her, if that makes any sense. So all I'm expecting is fun times and that's it.
Earlier tonight I saw some crazy shit happening. This was probably around 7pm or so. I went out with my Dad to buy some food and on our way home there were 3 objects in the sky. It looked like fireballs or a meteor or something. All 3 were traveling at a pretty good speed. I was driving so I couldn't really get a good look to see what it was. But it looked like they were traveling straight down. And then all of a sudden, all three of them looked like it started coming towards us. But then one of them disappeared. When we turned the corner, I lost track of all 3 of them or they might have disappeared all together. And when I finally got to my house. I heard all the choppers in the sky. I normally hear a helicopter here and there but this time it sounded like there were a grip of them. And the strange thing was that I saw maybe 8 cop cars in a span of 15 minutes all in my neighborhood. And it seemed like they were stopping every person that was walking. Every street we passed had a cop car. It gave me a really weird feeling. I should watch the news if there's anything behind theses fireballs in the sky.
My lady best friend hit me up this morning saying she needed to get 5 vaccination shots. I was all like, what's the big deal? And then she told me her number one fear was NEEDLES!!!!!! I knew she was afraid of alot of things but I didn't what her biggest fear was. Some best friend I am, huh? So I was telling her things like sing "I Will Survivie" or imagine me in my leopard print speedo. Hahahahaha. I was just trying to cheer her up. So the idea of getting faded crossed my mind, which I told her to do. But I guess she was already in the nurses office, so that idea was a no go. Hahahahahaha.
She hit me up again after the shots saying she was alive!!!!! It hurt like hell but she was alive. So I said let's go celebrate. Party time! But she said her trip to the doctors wasn't done yet. She still had to poo in a cup!!!!!!!!! WTF?!?!?!?!?!?! And my next question to her was, is there gonna be another chick with you? And she was all like, you mean to catch the poop for me? And I was like, yeah.....with her mouth!!!!!!!!! 2 chicks 1 cup!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahahahahahaha. Yeah, I'm a horrible best friend.
Right now, I'm waiting to hear the results about pooing in a cup.....
This weekend was another crazy one. Let's just say I went to a friend's house for some regular activities but some underage girls showed up and turned the place into a madhouse. Beer pong, karaoke, random photos being taken all night, ass grabbing, lapdances, sharing body warmth in the rain, etc. It was good times. Oh how I wish to be 18 again. Hahahahahaha.
And just to set the record straight, I didn't do anything with any of them. I swear. Hahahahaha.
Last night we were at Dave and Busters to celebrate Ramon's b-day. I haven't been there in a long ass time. Hahahaha. It was pretty fun. Ran into some familiar faces. After all, it was Thursday, which I guess is Asian night there.
I happened to invite one of our co-workers there. One time we were kickin' it and she told me that no one from work ever invites her out. And she always has get-togethers and invites everyone all the time. So I make it a point to invite her every single time. But I felt bad last night cuz unbeknown to me, my "cousin" hit me up and wanted to party in San Diego. And she happens to be 18 and she knows I work at a bunch of 18+ events. So she wanted to be where I was at. And here comes my dilemma. Co-worker or "cousin" in town? I chose the "cousin" cuz she brought two 18 yr olds with her as well and I don't see her that much. I see my co-worker everyday. I just felt bad cuz my co-worker was probably just sittin' down by herself all night. I hardly saw her. And she got mad when I left cuz I couldn't find her and I just took off without saying bye. So she texted me and I drove back to DnB so I could properly say bye. She looked pretty smashed when I left. Hahahahaha.
The big 18! Now you're legal. And what do you know? We got an 18+ event at College Rocks this Friday. Hahahahaha.
On another note, maybe it wasn't a good idea for me to run yesterday. For some reason I was sore as shiite. The past few days have been rough. My calves felt like they were gonna explode and my hamstrings were tighter than a virgin's ass hole (hence, the facebook name). And I paid the price when I was bowling last night. Tuesday nights are league nights. Yeah, I couldn't get a good push and my footing was all awkward. And did I mention every throw was painful? Yeah, but I had a decent game regardless of the pain. I bowled a 181, 150, and a 192. There were a bunch of spares that I should have picked up but didn't have the power to properly place the ball how I wanted.
I think the only reason I'm sore is cuz I feel like I'm getting sick. I've been coughing like crazy and I feel like imma lose my voice. My body just has too much work to do and it can't keep up.
Last night I found out I had a stalker. She had been secretly been reading my blog(s) and keeping up with me and even knowing where I'd be. She messaged me yesterday saying she saw me at Church on Sunday and wanted to say hi. So I was intrigued by this cuz I didn't see her and I have a wandering eye at Church. Hahahaha. So we got to talking and shootin' shiite and all that jazz and she mentioned all this stuff that I never told her about. And I asked her how she knew and the confession came out. Hahahahaha. It's ok, I like her (in a non-sexual way....but it might be a different story if I was faded). So I don't mind that she was stalking me. Maybe I'll see her this weekend? Cuz I know she knows where I'm gonna be.....
I wasn't drunk. I don't think I've had a drink ever since before X-mas and I'm gonna keep it up. It's just not part of my plan to get to where I need to be. But yeah, this past Saturday was an awesome adventure. Hahahahaha.
Let's just start where the madness begins. So one of my friends, let's call him "Roel", was at his cousin's wife's b-day bash. And they're like in their 30's and married and what not. So he's over there but we get invited to our friend "Jong's" place. "Roel" is at this party, and he already told "Chong" that he would show up at his place not knowing that this 30+ yr old party would be off the hook. So on my way to pick up "Roel", he was having 2nd thoughts about going to "Chong's" cuz he was putting the moves on 1 of the 3 single ladies in the whole place. He said there was a cute one, a hot one, and the "eh, whatever" one. So naturally, he went for the cute one. And he's already on a good one.
So after a debate, he decides to be a man of his word and leave the party and head with me and "Dustin" to go to "Chong's". He's kicking himself cuz this girl was desperate and telling him how they're getting old and no one wants to get with her. Single girls in their 30's get like this. I told him we could stop by that party again cuz I'll take one of the other 2 remaining single ladies and I know "Dustin" will handle the last remaining one.
Now we're at "Chong's" place and "Chong" is a drinker. He has a giant ass bottle of Jack waiting for us. It's a good thing I don't drink anymore. Hahahahaha. So these guys ended up taking shots all night. We got there around 10pm and didn't leave til maybe 3am. That's a lot of alcohol they drank. And pretty much we were on a webcam teleconference with all the people who couldn't make it. So we had different people web chatting with us while we all drank and sang songs and what not. And there was mad shit talking. And at one point "Roel" and Chong" decided to arm wrestle but there was no table around. So they set up shop on the floor and proceeded to arm wrestle. It was a sight to see 2 grown ass men laying on their bellies arm wrestling. Hahahahahahah. And "Jey" taught me this song called Slow Jam by Usher. It's a panty dropper.
But at the end of the night "Roel" was already on a good one from his 30+ yr old party and then all the shots from "Jong's" just sent him overboard. When I saw he couldn't stand on his own anymore I decided it was time for us to leave. So we're driving home around 3am and the 15 south is closed so we're takin' the side streets to hop onto the 163. But "Roel" tells me he's about to yack so I pull over. And when the car stops, he opens the doors and falls out. Literally. All I heard was 2 loud thuds. I think he landed on his shoulder/back first and then his legs followed. And he's groaning in pain so we jump out of the car and try to help him. "Dustin" was trying to pick him up but "Roel" kept complaining that his back was in so much pain. So we left him laying on the ground on the side of the road for a few minutes and then tried to help him up again. "Dustin" picked him up from the front and I slid in behind him to support his back. And as I'm picking him up, "Roel" let's out this mean fart, which I felt on my leg. Damn him. Hahahahahaha. So we're all laughing and we start to Jesus carry him to the side so he could yack but he started to make the dry heaving motions so we bailed cuz he might get it on us. He yacked alot. And when I saw him come up, he had chunks of yack on his face. Hahahahaha. It's a good thing I carry baby wipes in my ride. You just never know when you need to clean up. Hahahahaha.
So we're on our way back now and this one chick "Karen" hits up "Roel". It's like 3 am. So this mean BOOTY CALL!!!! "Roel is faded out of his damn mind and we can hear everything he's saying. It wasn't good. So "Dustin" grabs the phone and convinces this girl to meet up with us. This girl is crazy. She decided to meet up with us. Can anyone say CHOO CHOO? Hahahahahaha.
We ended up meeting at Denny's in Mission. We were talking to "Karen" for a while and "Roel" was pretty much passed out in my ride. "Karen" was making fun of "Roel" and I guess he heard it so he hopped out of my ride and jumped into hers. He then proceeded to sleep again, while "Dustin" and I were talking to this chick. Denny's was scary so we ended up going to Jack in the Box. So we're talking in the parking lot of JITB and "Roel" was snoring in the car. "Karen" decided to take some pix of his ass asleep. It was gettin' late and "Dustin" had work at 8am so we told "Karen" we were gonna bounce and I'd pick up "Roel" from her place tomorrow morning. She was trippin' cuz she didn't want to be responsible for a drunk ass person. Hahahahaha. But I told he's in your ride. When he was in mine, he was my responsibility. Now he's in yours. Good luck. And right as I said that, "Roel" gave a smirk in his fake sleep and we took off hoping he would capitalize on the situation he was in. All alone with a girl and both of them are drunk....
I feel like I have a new lease on life. My outlook is starting to look brighter these days. I think I blame it on the running. And the eating. I feel so much better. I'm not as tired as I used to be. Before, I could get by and function normally, but in the back of my head I wasn't too pleased. It's taken around 28 weeks for these changes to kick it. Hahahaha. I used to run by myself and hate the world and everything in it. Now I got running partners and it just makes it so much funner. Thanks Ramon for running with me. I know I'm all hella slow and you can probably run twice as much in the same amount of time, but thanks for just being there.
I nearly witnessed an accident. I was at the intersection waiting to turn left and there was some chick adjacent to where I was, wanting to turn right. It's like she didn't even look to see if there was oncoming traffic and she proceeded to turn right. And I saw in my rear view mirror that there was this tow truck steaming ahead and it was probably going 40mph. This chick was pretty much halfwfay into the lane already and the tow truck swerved into the midle of the lane to avoid hitting it. And the chick only noticed the tow truck AFTER it passed her. She then slammed on the brakes and she was holding a Starbucks cup in one of her hands and I saw her face of horror. It was priceless. Her eyes got all big and I read her lips say "Oooohhhh Shit!" And then I turned left onto Carroll Rd.
So today I dropped a hot deuce 3 times and it wasn't even noon yet. This concerned me because I normally take around 4 dumps a day but they're spread out in good intervals. So not too long ago I coughed really hard and I felt a squirt. I immediately knew what this was. I casually walked to the bathroom trying to not make it obvious. I had no idea if the hershey squirt seeped through the underwear and onto my pants.
Luckily when I cough, I have a tendency to squeeze my cheeks...just in case something of this nature ever arises. Well, thank goodness for my tendencies. Now I can go on with the rest of my day knowing that I still have my underwear in tact. My cheeks were able to trap all the chocolate morsels in place. If not, I would have went to the boss and just said I wasn't feeling good and I woulda went home and laughed my ass off during the ride home for doing such a deed. I'm still laughing, regardless. Hahahahahaha.
I got to spend some good quality time with this one last night. We never really get a chance to do things together but spur of the moment activities are the best. There's nothing better than someone who's willing to say "Eh, f*ck it! Let's do it!" regardless of the consequences and oblivious to time and all the other real world bolshleviks (my replacement word for b*llshit) we have to deal with.
I wish things were different. I wish the ball would roll my way sometimes....
The relationship we built, it was kind of surreal. I wasn't expecting anything out of it except friendship. But we built something stronger. We got real close. Too close for my own good. Like secret lovers, I began to get attached emotionally. She helped me realize things I already knew but didn't want to do. And she gave me the courage to go for it. It's been months since I last saw her but I knew that she was only a long drive away. But now that's not the case. Tonight she leaves. Forever. A new world, a new life. I'm still here living the same life. Afraid to change. Afraid to explore. Afraid to love. To open my heart to someone is not something I'm willing to do. Not right now. I'm not ready. I dunno if I'll ever be ready but I need to finish my current journey before I can begin a new one. I need to find myself all over again....
You know what's funny? When I see people use shirts as car seat covers. Hahahahaha. I don't get it. Why would you ever do that? I understand it's a cool shirt and you want to show it off but cut out the design and sew it onto a real seat cover. Or maybe it's for the occasion that if they ever get stranded somewhere and they somehow get their shirt torn/ripped/mangled/bloodied or whatever, then their shirt car seat cover will come in handy. But then again you could always just store an extra shirt in your trunk. Hahahahaha.
Today I picked up the guitar for the first time in a long time. I've been busy and the guitar is a great way to relax. I don't know why I neglected it for so long. Maybe cuz I was trying to learn the piano...but I haven't touched the piano in a good while either. No excuses. I gotta get back to doing what I love. There's always time when you make time.
Last night she turned to me for answers. This isn't the first time she's done that. But I'm NOT the best person you can turn to when looking for answers. I don't have any. All I can offer is a breakdown of the situation. And an ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on. I'm nothing more. I've never been good when dealing with this situation. She poured her heart out and all I could tell her were the things she already knew. And I'd make her laugh every once in a while. I guess I can be good for that.
But yeah, she wants to clean the slate and I'm there just to be a witness. And to support her in whatever decision she makes. Sometimes the hardest decision is the one you've already made but don't want to go through with. I wish things didn't have to be so hard.
She hit me up last night. I haven't had contact with her in what seems like years. I called her babycakes and she called me lovebug. We were never "together" but it sure did feel like it. I just felt like it was wrong when we were spending time together because I knew what my role was. She had just gotten out of a serious relationship maybe 2 weeks before I met her. And me be crazy and all, combined with her being freed back into the wilderness of the single life, led to some insanely good times. All the things she couldn't do before or never tried, well....you know me. One of my closest friends knew what was going on and he was the only one I could talk to about the situation. I was trying to keep this on the low. And he said he's do the same damn thing if he were in my shoes. So I dove in knowing my role.
When she was all recovered, I knew I probably would not keep contact with her. I did for a little bit, just to ease the phase out period. But yeah, she got back on her feet and I kept on walking. We're both walking now.
We've gone to the pr0n con for the past 4 years in a row now. The 1st time was like sensory overload. I was ready to jizz in my pants on the spot. This year, I can't say the same thing. I dunno if the economy is affecting the pr0n industry as well, but it just didn't have that extra "oomph" to give me that satisfaction. I mean, it was still fun but it just didn't compare to the years before. Maybe I'm getting numb to this stuff? I still got excited thinking about it, on the week leading up to it. But being there wasn't the same. I had expectations and things I was looking forward to seeing. And I think the fact that those expectations did not come about kinda killed my buzz. Certain companies weren't there. Certain stars weren't there. The usual amount of celebrities weren't there. Times are tough right now and I thought pr0n would be the one thing that would be able to survive any kind of crisis. I guess I was wrong.
Nonetheless, I had an awesome time in Vegas. I gambled again for maybe the 3rd time ever. I'm not a gambler. And I lost. Hahahaha. I don't get that rush that other people get from gambling. I'd rather spend my money on a good meal or something. I wanna know my money went to good use.
Tonight we leave for Vegas. This is what, 4 years in a row now? It's become tradition for us to go here during the beginning of January each year. And if you have no idea what I'm talking about, do the letters AVN or AEE ring a bell? Yeah, it's the pr0n con. And you know me, I love me some pr0n. Well, if you want anything from there, text me tonight or tomorrow morning and I'll do my best to get it for you. I already have requests for DVD's and pictures of certain stars.
Ok, so the other week I was at a wedding and I was chatting with the Maid of Honor. I normally talk to her like I would talk to any of my other friends. I consider her a good friend. We were pretty close at one point. But at the wedding, I was talking to her and I put my arm around her. I did this quite frequently back in college and we would walk around campus like this. It was no big deal to me and her. We're "hands on" with each other. So at the wedding I'm chatting with her with my arm around her and I notice a guy looking at us. I didn't even think twice to see who it was. Well, she noticed me look in his direction and she happened to glance also. It turns out it was her man. He had been keeping a close eye on us. And as soon as she noticed him, she whispered in my ear and said "Oh.....he doesn't like it when you mess with me." And then I took my arm off of her and took a step back and said "Are you serious?" And she looked at me with the straightest face I've ever seen on her and said "Yeah." I put my hands in the air, like I was being arrested, and said "I apologize." And then she says "No no no no! I didn't know either. He saw a picture of us two and asked if you were always like that? And I said yeah. Do you have a problem with that? And he said 'Kinda'." The only thing I could say to her was "Wow." And then I walked away.
I'm not a homewrecker. I'm not trying to steal someone else's girl. I have a little bit of morals. A little bit. I know I do some crazy things but I still have a conscious and I know what's right and wrong. And I always try to to do the right thing. I feel like punching this guy every time I see him now since her whole family knows how I act with her. Her sister knows. Her brother knows. And her Dad knows. We've always been very friendly with one another. When the Dad approves of what I do, you have no say. Dad's are the most protective people. And her Dad is on my side.
Later on at the wedding reception I came up to her again and said "You know.....I would never do anything to put your relationship in a compromise...." And she cut me off and said "I know! Don't worry about him. I'll talk to him. You didn't do anything."
It felt good to hear her say that but it still bothers me that she's even with him. If this guy is insecure and gets jealous when her friends are acting friendly around her, then maybe he needs to grow up cuz I'm not gonna change who I am.
Here's another resolution. I started doing this in the past 2 months but I'd like to continue it. I started playing the piano again. I took lessons when I was a kid but I never really paid attention. I did whatever Ms. Carmen(my piano teacher) asked me to play. It was boring. Now I'm playing stuff I want to play and it's fun. I wanna get good to where I can play in public without being embarassed. Right now I wouldn't play in front of anybody I don't know very well. I'd like that to be different this time around next year.
Ok, I thought of something I need to be doing. Stretching. I have the worst hamstrings in hamstring history so my goal for this year is to be more limber. I need to stretch before and after I work out. I'm guilty of only stretching whenever I feel tight. That shouldn't be the case.
On a side note, I got my first haircut in 2.5 years. It's nothing major though. I only took off 2 or 3 inches. But it does feel noticably shorter. The only reason I cut it is cuz my hair felt so brittle and the split ends were killing me. Hahahahaha. And my girl cousins say they wish I was a girl. I let them play with my hair and my nails. They always compliment my nails. Hahahahaha. Apparently I have girl hands.
Happy new year. I didn't do much. I stayed at home with the family.
Resolutions for this year? Maybe blog more? On a consistent basis? To blog better content? Ha. Naw, I want to continue my food project and eat healthier. And also to use my time wisely. I spend alot of time just dicking around when I could be productive. That's one of my biggest flaws.
I know I haven't blogged on here very much but I'm not really feeling this blog too much. Check out www.hundredpercentsd.com for my latest project.
This morning I officially payed the bill for our playoff tickets. I'm pretty confident that the Chargers will beat the Broncos this Sunday. The Chargers are on a 3 game winning streak and the Broncos are on a 2 game losing streak. Momentum is on our side. Plus this is redemption. We got screwed out of the first meeting between us and now it's payback. We have a reason and it just adds fuel to our desire to beat these guys. I just wish Ed Hoculi was ref'ing this game cuz he owes us a big one. Hahahahaha.
One thing I like about the cold weather: I don't have to put my drinks in the fridge or add ice to make them refreshing. =)
Last night we were dancing, grinding as a matter of fact. She was facing away from me, with her booty pressed against my crotch. It felt good and as we danced my hands roamed her body. One hand holding a camera and the other exploring every inch of her torso. She leaned her head back and she was facing the ceiling with her head resting on my shoulder as we grinded. I know she could feel it. She was breathing heavy and so I began to nibble on her ear. She turned around to face me and we had our legs in between each other. My hard on pulsating on her thigh and her snatch gyrating on my thigh. She pressed her right cheek against my left cheek. Our lips were close.....so I went in.
This morning when I was taking my Mom to work I was listening to T-Pain's new album and my Mom goes "Canta ng mga egot ito, di ba?" And I was all like "How can you tell?" And then she started to sing the part in "Cant Believe It" where T-Pain goes "she make the people say 'yeeeeaaaaaaahhhh'..." My Mom was singing along with the 'yeeeeaaaaaaahhhh' part. I was cracking up cuz she did it good. My Mom impersonating T-Pain. I wish I got it on video. Hahahahaha.
And another time my Mom was watching Wowowee and they played the song "Dangerous" by Kardinal Offishal and Akon and she calls me to tell me they're playing the song she always hears in my car and she was singing the chorus part "That girl is so dangerous, dangerous..." Hahahahaha. My bro was cracking up cuz my Mom knew the words.
I now have a 32" flatscreen tv in my room. It's been there for almost a week now. And I've probably turned it on twice. It's just weird having a tv in my room. I think I went for maybe 2 years without a tv in my room? Maybe 3? But yeah, it's in there and I don't even have the urge to turn it on.
I've been in the process of converting my room into a lounge for about 3 weeks now. It's still not done. I'm hoping to have it done before X-mas, but I doubt it. I have waaaay too much stuff. I need to get rid of a bunch of old clothes. There are alot of stuff that I still like but never use.
List of things to do before X-mas: -take down all posters in my room -put shelves on my walls -patch up holes in the walls from thumb-tacks/nails -get new tires for my rims -get an ugly sweater -finish the Hundred Percent website -fix my strobe/continuous light bracket -backup all my pictures/files on my external hard drive(s)
My middle finger is hurting like crazy. And my ass is sore. No, it's not what you're thinking. Hahahahaha. This is from bowling. Every time I throw the backup ball, my middle finger gets caught and feels like it's been jammed. And after bowling 6 games straight, my plant leg ass cheek gets real sore. We usually bowl 3 games on League Nights but since my team missed last week, we had to make up for it tonight.
I told myself that I wouldn't drink anymore after my b-day until new years but last night was different. I ended up drinking. Ha. For the first time I got a little tipsy at the bowling alley. And this was during my games too. We started drinking on maybe the 2nd game. And then we started playing "If I get a strike on this frame, then you gotta take a shot of Patron....". It was pretty damn fun. And I was drinking with this girl I'm diggin'. She's like 4'11", has some thick thighs, a giant booty, AND she looks like she's 16 but she's 21. Hahahahahahaha. Now that we've drank together imma start hittin' her up outside of the bowling alley. Cuz last night she kept blaming me for all her open frames saying I shoulda never got her Patron but I know she was lovin' it. She was hopin' we'd get strikes so we could get more Patron. Hahahahaha. She just didn't want to drink during our games. She wanted to drink after. But I kept pushing for right here, right now, SHOT...you're buying! Hahahahahaha.
There's this other girl in bowling league that's pretty cute also but she's pretty young. So I'm staying away. Not jail bait young, but freshly 18 young. I saw her at one of the 18+ events at Decos once and she apparently knows a bunch of people I've met from 18+ events. All her friends know me since I'm the photographer. Hahahahaha. So after I saw her at the club we became real cool at the bowling alley. I never really talked to her before that cuz she looked jail bait young. But I've been talking to her every week at bowling and she doesn't seem that interesting. Maybe our ages are too far apart where we can't really relate. We can talk about bowling stuff all night but when I bring up topics outside of bowling it gets a little weird. So that's the main reason I'm staying away from her.
This morning, for the 3rd straight morning I woke up before my alarm clock (aka cell phone) woke me up. And it's not like I slept early either. Am I that much of a robot that I know when to get up regardless of what time I sleep?
Yesterday, my new lens came in. It's a beast!!!!! The thing is huge for such a small focal range. I took a few test shots but I didn't really get to play around with it too much. I'll get to play with it tonight since we're doing a photoshoot at Ryan's place. I have the Bohemian Rhapsody or Death Row idea in mind where everything is black and all you can is are the people's heads and the front person's arms. We'll see how it turns out. I'll also get to use my new backdrop and new lights/umbrellas tonight also. My mock studio got turned into the guest room already since we have family coming into town on Thanksgiving.
My room is also being converted. I want it to be a lounge. Hahahaha. I don't have a bed anymore so my room looks twice the size. All I have is a love seat. I plan on buying a flat screen 32" and maybe mount it on my wall and hooking up my computer to it. My room will probably be the gaming room now too. My bro recently bought a PS3 and his room is crowded so I know he wants to put in my room cuz everyday he keeps asking me when I'm gonna buy a TV. Hahahahaha. I've lived for about 2 years without a TV. The only thing I've watched in the past 2 years are sports or whatever it is someone else is watching when I sit in the living room. Or if I go to someone's house and they're watching, then I'll watch too.
I have a few books I've been meaning to read:
-The Mystery Method by Mystery(started but not yet finished) -Love is a Mix Tape by Rob Sheffield -Stranger Than Fiction by Chuck Palahniuk -Rules of The Game by Style -The Manual of The Warrior Of Light by Paulo Coelho
Of those books, the one most intriguing to me is Love is a Mix Tape. It basically captures some guys journey through love: meeting the girl, being with the girl, and then losing the girl. To me, music is my true love. It's my passion, my reason for being. And I can relate it with being in a relationship. It's crazy how some songs will remind me exactly of who I was with and how I felt at that moment in time. I'll remember it like it was yesterday. It's almost like music is a time machine. The soundtrack of my life. I haven't started this book yet but I have a good feeling about it.
Speaking of the soundtrack to my life, what would be the opening song to yours? I think mine might be Thunderstruck by AC/DC. That's just off the top of my head. I might change it if I thought about it for a long while. And for sure I want the closing song to be Dust In The Wind sung by will Ferrell. And every song in between is probably by R. Kelly and there might be a few break-ups in there too so maybe some Boyz II Men. Hahahahaha.
This morning I went to fill up on gas and I noticed that for the first time in a long time that gas was under $2/gallon. I was flippin' out. I seriously can't remember the last time gas was under $2. I felt like going home and filling up all the cars with gas. I was that excited. Hahahahaha.
Last night/this morning I didn't sleep until 3am. I went to bed at around 12 or so but I just couldn't fall asleep. I didn't really have that much on my mind but I did hear some crazy sounds. It was weird cuz every few minutes I would hear this humming sound. It was more like the sound that you do when you wet the tip of your finger and rub it on the rim of a glass. I guess that's not really a hum but I can't describe it. Whenever I'd hear it, I would envision alien spaceships outside my room just hovering. And when the sound would disappear, I imagined they took off to their home planet. And the fact that the sound would come back a few minutes later was confirmation in my head that traveling at light speed was possible. Hahahahaha.
Oh, the other day someone rang the doorbell at my house. My bro was closer to the door so he went to answer it. And when he got to the door no one was there but there was this package with my name on it. It was b-day gift from Jay. And guess what was inside it? Yup, you guessed it. It starts with a P and rhymes with morn. Hahahahahaha. As you all know I love me some pizzorn. I'm just glad it was my bro who got the door.
Drank like crazy on Monday til the early hours of Tuesday morn. Slept for a hours and woke up for work and felt fine. It's now Wed. and I woke up feelin' like major crap. It's 9am and I've already takin' 3 shits. I've eaten nothing so far. I dunno what's the deal with this late reaction. I dunno if it's the fact that I barely slept after all the drinking that made my body think it was still the same day and now it thinks today is the day after. Oh well.
My cousins are now attending school(4th, 5th and 7th grade) and they come to my place for tutoring. I never knew how hard it was teach kids lesson plans and what not. And it's even harder cuz I don't know the Tagalog-English translations of certain things so I can't thoroughly explain to them what to they need to do on their homework. I feel like a horrible tutor cuz I can see the frustration on their faces. I also feel like an idiot cuz some of the stuff they ask me I haven't seen in decades and I can't really remember what to do. It's like that show Are You Smarter Than A 5th Grader. I've never seen that show but I imagine that's how the contestants feel. Like idiots. Ha.
In other news, the "vampire" thinks I'm the mastermind behind the "defection". Hahahahaha. I guess he started ranting on how I always criticize his every move. And I guess I leave a sour taste in his mouth. Hahahahaha. I take great satisfaction in knowing that he sees me as a threat. He's trying to play mind games but I'm playing them too. Except mine are real words and real actions. He knows that I'm aware of the truth behind the situation and he's trying to cover his own ass. The only thing I can tell him is the truth isn't hard to remember. When you start trying to come up with stories to cover lies is when you start stuttering and backtracking and getting all defensive. I know I did nothing wrong so I'm not backing down.
Last night I ordered this lens for my camera. It's a little b-day gift for myself. I've been wanting a decent lens for a while, since all my lenses are pretty shitty. I was thinking of buying a new camera but I thought about it and decided to just buy lenses. A new camera would have new features that I probably wouldn't even use. Sure, it'll have more megapixels but I don't blow my pictures up and print them bigger than 8x10. I don't even print them bigger than 4x6. My Dad has a DSLR also, so I can just borrow his if something goes wrong with mine. We use the same lenses anyways.
Oh yeah, last night I also started turning my sister's old room into a studio. We gave all the stuff in there to my relatives who recently moved into an apartment. There's still stuff in there that we need to give them. Maybe I'll do it this weekend. But my Mom wants to turn the room into a guest room but since we don't have any furniture to go in there yet, I'm using it as a studio for now. My bro keeps asking me if I called my sister to let her know what I'm doing. She comes home every other weekend so I'm sure she would like a bed to sleep on when she's home. So if she comes home this weekend, the couch will be her bed. Hahahahahaha. Yeah, I'm a great big brother.
Here's my Mom's yearbook picture. Hahahahahaha. It looks like it could go in a yearbook.
I don't think I write long blog posts anymore. I dunno if I ever did but I enjoy reading the longer ones that other people write. So just to make things fair, and by abiding by the Golden Rule, imma make a concentrated effort to write more thought out and lengthy blogs. I know I just ramble about the most random things but it's hard for me to sit down and think about what to write. I usually just write what's currently on my mind. I know when I'm driving I think of all this crazy stuff but as soon as I get home or near a computer, I forget all about it and start doing some other stuff. I don't foget what I was thinking about, it's just I get caught up in wanting to look at other things like reading up on the Chargers or something of the sort.
I know I probably touched on this before but I'm trying to build good habits. I don't want to have to act a certain way around some people and censor myself. I want to be able to do the same things I normally do around everyone. Therefore I refrain from using profanity at all times. I just don't want to get in the habit of cussing and then when I'm in a situation where I'm surrounded by children or the elderly I accidently let out some bad words just cuz I always do that. So I usually replace the F word with "Fudge" but I extend the "u" sound so it's like "Fuuuuuuuuuuuudge". I don't say "What the f*ck?", I say "what the eff?" Instead of "Oh sh!t" it's "Oh snap". I replace "Holy sh!T" with "Holy hot crap". I didn't really mention this specifically to any of my friends but I know I'm rubbing off on them cuz I'm starting to hear them say the things I say and less profanity. You just never know if someone's Mom is standing behind you.
Since my relatives moved out of my house, we're gonna convert the extra room into a guest room. I kinda wanna turn it into a studio, maybe for photography or music. Or I can turn my room into the studio and just sleep in the guest room all the time. Hahahahaha. BUt yeah, last night I was measuring the room so I can see what kind of things can fit in there. I also want to get rid of all my old clothes. They're too big for me now. And I don't want to keep them so I can make sure I don't get that big again. Before I was thinking I should keep them just in case I get fatter again, but that's not the right mindset. Imma get rid of them so I can ensure that I never get that fat again. I know I have relatives in the Philippines who are pretty big so I can give them all my old clothes.
Did I mention that I love Under Armour? I mean, I'm too cheap to buy the real thing so I buy the Wal-Mart brands but they feel so good. It keeps me cool on hot days. Last night I bought a bunch of the long sleeve ones so I can be outdoors and not get sunburnt. And I really don't feel the sweat when I'm working out. It works as advertised.
Last night we helped my Lola, Uncle, Auntie, and my cousins move into their new apartment. They live down the block from us now. My house feels so empty. I got used to having them around and I enjoyed it even though my house was pure madness. It was fun to come home to a loud house. There was so much energy. Being around so many people helped me NOT feel like an imbecile. I felt I had some worth, some value.
I welcome new things into to my life but when it leaves, it's hard for me to deal with.
So last night I went to a bachelor party. My buddy Eisen is the best man so he invited me along for the good times. It was crazy, weird experience. We met up at the Groom's place and I didn't really know what to expect. I was thinking it was gonna be dudes around our age but these cats were maybe mid 30's or even in the 40's, since Asians age well. But yeah, it was pretty fob-ulous. I felt like I was at my own house or something with all the Tagalog being spoken.
But yeah, we rented this Limo Bus which was pretty damn dope. It had a stripper pole and a good ass sound system in there. I've never drank while we were in a moving vehicle, other than the time we were on a boat in Lake Havasu during spring break. It was a crazy experience. We ended up going to this strip club but all these old cats were broke. So they got the groom a lap dance and then we booked. We were literally there for like 20 mins. That's the quickest I've stayed at a strip club. And then we headed downtown to cruise the streets but these cats were so old they didn't know where to go. So we drove around for like 2 hours, or at least it felt that way. Hahahahahaha. And then when we finally posted up somewhere, these cats didn't know how to holla at girls. This was the beginning of the weird part of the night. It's like these guys didn't know how to have conversations with girls. I mean, I'm still learning. It's difficult for me to come up to a random girl and strike up a conversation but these cats would be all like "Hola mami!" after the girl has already passed by and is like 20 ft away. That's not gonna work. Hahahahaha. And then when we got back on the bus, one of the old cats starts puking his brains out. He yacked all over himself and the bus diver pulled over. This guy is probably 37 and he cant handle his liquor. How pathetic. He's drinking like he's 18, like his first time ever.
Like I said, it was a crazy, weird experience. Hahahahaha. I still feel a little faded and I already drank a gallon of water.
After growing my hair now for over 2.5 years, I'm debating on if I should shave my head or not. I like having long hair but from the looks of it, I'm going bald. My hair is super thin to the point where my scalp is visible at all times. And all these people keep commenting that I'm already going bald and it's making me super self conscious. And a lot of people, like my family/relatives, say I look better with short hair but I beg to differ. I feel the long hair suits my personality and allows me to express myself.
I dunno, maybe it's time for a change? Maybe I'll start the coming year fresh? We'll see what happens....
I'm starting to get sick again. Damn. I started coughing again and this morning I had phlegm. I really need to sleep more. Now that I'm NOT working for the magazine, I think I'll have some more time to myself. We'll see what happens.
On Friday, I didn't go to work cuz I went to LAX to pick up my Mom's sister and her 3 kids from the airport. They came from the Philippines and are now living with us. Man, my house is full. We got 10 people living a 4 bedroom place. And over the weekend my sister came home so there was 11 of us. And we only have 2 bathrooms so it was madness. But it's fun. I'm speaking more Tagalog than ever, since my cousins don't speak too much English. I only know "proper" Tagalog since I only speak it to the elders but my cousins are teaching me all these slang terminology. And it's funny cuz I tell them I don't know what that word means and they don't know it in English so we have to play charades to try to explain things to each other. Hahahahaha. And I'm teaching them all about the internet. Their friends in the Philippines have Friendster so they asked me to create an account for them, now that internet is readily available.
Last night in bowling league was pretty wild. I was actually bowling pretty good. I was in the 190's and with my handicap I was in the 230's. But the shot of the night came when I thought that I messed up big time. I was throwing my ball in the same spot but for one throw my ball hooked more than I wanted and I left the Big 4 up. The Big 4 is the 4-6-7-10 split. I have never seen anyone convert this. So I thought I had no chance and I just chucked the ball really hard hoping for the best. As soon as the ball started getting close to the pins I could see that if I hit the first pin in the right spot it could roll over and hit the pins on the opposite side. But my ball hooks so I didn't think it'd go where I thought it would. But low and behold, my ball stayed true and hit it in the right spot and I converted the Big 4. The place went wild. Everyone started cheering and even people from the other teams came over to congratulate me. I just stood there in silence with my hand covering my mouth. I was in shock.
But yeah....here's the only recorded conversion of the Big 4. He did his a little different than mine.
It was an awesome wedding. It's probably the best one I've been to. It got me really excited for whoever is gonna get married next amongst my friends. And I don't really like weddings. But this one opened up my eyes...
I'm starting to come around to my senses again. I think what I'm eating affects my moods. Deprived of meat = not happy. I ate some fried chicken last night, and I've been staying away from fried foods in general, but it felt good to cheat. No wonder there are so many cheaters in this world. Cheating gets you there faster. Hahahahaha.
But yeah, I feel better about things and I can smile for reals.
For the first time in my life, I felt the joys that a woman feels when they go shopping. I've been kinda down on myself for unspecified reasons but I went shopping yesterday for new clothes and it made me feel better. I bought some new pants since my old ones were getting big. I used to wear size 40 but yesterday I bought size 36's. It felt good. It actually made my day. I was gonna buy 38's but on a whim I decided to try on some 36's and they actually fit. I was genuinely surprised. I only planned on buying new pants but I was so happy that I decided to buy new shirts, new underwear, new socks, and a new watch. Hahahahaha. I spent a grip. I also bought my Mom this gold Guess watch. She loved it and kept showing it off to everyone. Her b-day is coming up and I didn't get her anything for this past Mother's Day so I thought I'd get her an early B-day present/late Mother's day gift.
I hate doing damage control. No less than an hour ago, I found out some disturbing news. A close friend of mine totally disrespected another close friend of mine in the worst possible way. At one point they were very close, but now one of them doesn't trust the other. And it sucks cuz I hang out with both of them. And occasionally we all hang out together. Now I have to do damage control. Why can't some people control their alcohol? Damn.
There are two things you can never do. You don't mess with a man's food and you don't mess with a man's girl....regardless of how drunk you are. Respect.
A million miles I've walked on these feet, these tired feet of mine. A million times I've wanted to give up and just stop walking. A million thoughts kept telling me to never quit cuz someday I'd find what I'm searching for. But that someday seems like a million years away.
A million choices and not one belongs to me. A million chances and I've blown every single one. A million lessons to be learned but there's still a million regrets I need to get over. A million reasons but I've got a million excuses.
We finished the slideshow for Ramon's wedding a few hours ago. I think we did a decent job based on the time constraint. I would say we worked on it for 4, maybe 5 hours. I wish I was informed of it ahead of time so that way I could have added special effects and what not. I just hope they appreciate the effort put into it.
While working on this slideshow, I got to thinking......I wish I had friends like me. Not to sound conceited or anything but I feel like I do alot for my friends. Like, I'll get season tickets for us and pay for everything up front and just have them pay me when they can. I think that's a pretty big gesture. Now, the least they could do is offer to drive to games without me having to ask them. I feel like I'm forcing them to drive. I know I have a big truck and all but it's not like we have all that much stuff to bring. I wish they would see what I'm doing and maybe make things easier on me by at least offering to drive sometimes instead of me having to ask them.
I dunno, maybe I'm just rambling. But this whole wedding thing is making me emotional. I got alot of my mind. Alot of things I'm not willing to tell people. I don't know if anyone would understand where I'm coming from. It doesn't make sense to me as to why I feel this way. I'm happy for my best friend. In a week, he'll be married to a great girl. But at the same time I'm depressed. I wear a smile but if you took the time to look into my eyes, you'd know something is wrong.....
The other day at work, I got a call from a lady friend of mine that I haven't seen in a while. I was in the middle of alot of work so I declined her call. A minute later I get the voice message beep. Usually she doesn't leave voice messages so I thought it might be important. So I check the voice message and all I hear are moans of pleasure. Moaning for a good minute. Hahahahahaha. Either she's sending me a message that she wants some......or she was in the middle of getting some and she accidentally called me.
Last night I finally got a full night of sleep. Who knew it would do so much wonders? I've had back pain since last Friday and today is the first day it actually feels better. It's been getting worse everyday but now I'm on the road to recovery. I'm also not coughing that much anymore. I was coughing like crazy the past couple days and today I feel good. Maybe tonight I can get a full night of sleep as well? Hahahaha.
I was supposed to work on some slideshow last night but I went to sleep instead. I'll out it together real quick today and have some people review it and see if they wanna take stuff out or add stuff in. And tomorrow will be the last day I touch it since the deadline to turn it in is on Friday. If the slideshow sucks....oh well. It's better than nothing.
I was thinking of not going out to the clubs this week since my back has been hurting. But now that I'm feeling better, I'm reconsidering. But I'm also supposed to go hang out with this chick I met on a cruise a few weeks back. I bailed on her twice already and I don't wanna bail on her again. She's been real sweet and understanding of what I've been going through with my Grandma and me working double time. She works two jobs also, so she knows what it's like.
I also had this crazy ass dream last night. I was at a friend's place and his wife calls me into the room all panicking and going berzerk. And I see my friend is dying. So we call for help and they try to revive him but it's too late. So as they take my friend away, I'm consoling his wife and all but things started to get intimate. It was the only thing that I could do that would make her feel better. So I'm takin' her to town and doing everything she wants me to do. I'm havin' a blast. And then I woke up....at 100%. Hahahaha. I will also note that I haven't beat off or had any kind of action in a while. So this is my body telling me that I need to release. Hahahahahah. Oh yeah, I don't know who the people were in my dream. I can't remember their faces....
My back has been hurting since Friday night. Theres a couple things that might be the culprit of my pain. 1: Drea riding me. (It's not as dirty as it sounds. Honestly.) 2: Moving some couches. I woke up Saturday morning in pain. It even hurts when I cough. It literally feels like someone punched me right on the spine. The pain is right between my shoulder blades. If I push my chest out, there's a sharp pain in the middle of my back. If I'm still in pain at the end of the week....I might have to consider going to a doctor. And y'all know my beef with doctors.
If there's ever a reason that you invite me out and I don't show up without a call or any notice, it's because I'm with my Lola. I don't want to leave her home alone. I wanna make sure someone is home with her at all times cuz I don't want her being stuck and not to have anyone there to help her. It's a pain to have to do every little thing for her, but it's a pain I'm glad to endure. It's teaching me to become a better person, to not be so self absorbed. I've never had to put someone else's needs before mine. I get frustrated at times because she rejects my help, but I see her struggling so bad. I know she wants to do it on her own and she doesn't like being waited on hand and foot but her body can't function the way her mind wants it to.
I always wanted to live a long life but seeing someone live with unbearable pain scares me.
I miss these talks at night. Just opening up and not being afraid. Sharing our goals, our thoughts, our stupid tendencies. It made me feel....whole. I learned a lot about myself. The people close to you seem to know more about you than you do about yourself.
The other day I saw this 18-wheeler do this u-turn at the stop light. I think it was me, Jerry, Joel and Ryan sittin' in the car at the stop light on Telegraph by the 805 and we were thinking that this fool is crazy for even attempting to do that. But he pulled it off successfully and I was highly impressed. It's hard enough to bust a u-turn in my truck. I can't imagine having to do that in an 18-wheeler.
I've been sick for maybe 3 or 4 weeks now and I'm starting to feel better. Yeah, I should went to the doctor right when I got sick but y'all don't know the beef I got with them. Whenever I go get checked up, it always ends up being up a lecture on how much overweight I am and then they give me pamphlets on dieting and weight loss. I went to the doctor to get check up on my cough, not cuz I'm fat. So now I never go to the doctor cuz I'm tired of hearing it. Yeah, I'm aware that I'm overweight but I'm not mentally strong enough to do anything about it. I'm also very sensitive about the issue. So yeah, that's why I never go.
This past weekend, I drank for the first time in a long time. Like, really drank. I wasn't even planning on drinking but for some reason I just decided to go with it. And I'm glad I did. It felt good. I think the only reason I decided to drink was cuz I knew everyone there. I didn't need to have my guard up. The last time I drank was 4th of July at the magazine's launch party. I got kinda faded and this beast was giving me the eye. She hanging around the group of friends we were with so I thought she was with our crew. So when she came up to me to talk to me, I didn't really think twice about it. But yeah, I give her props for saying all the right things and making me feel comfortable. She had her game down pat. I didn't even realize what was happening...until it was too late. And you all know that I don't kiss people on the lips. I think it's more intimate that sex. But let's just say she pulled me in and I couldn't stop it.
Last night I tried Moonshine for the very first time. And I will mention that I haven't had any alcohol in a couple months. The last time I really drank was on the 4th of July. I've literally had a sip here and there (when a girl would ask me to taste their drink) but that's about it. Moonshine is no joke. It gave me a headache with the quickness. I only took maybe a teaspoon of it. Maybe when I'm done with this Food Project, I'll start drinkin' it up again and I'll take another stab at Moonshine.
My Lola is finally home from the hospital. She still can't walk but I'm sure she's happy to be home. It's kinda scary though cuz we all work and we can't attend to her 24/7 like at the hospital.
The reason we made her go to the hospital was cuz she was stuck in the bathroom for like 8-9 hours. Last week my Mom and bro left for work around 830am and my Lola was eating breakfast. Apparently she went to the bathroom shortly after that but her legs and feet gave out. She couldn't walk or move. My bro came home from work around 530-545pm and found her in the bathroom.
Bowling is quickly becoming one of my favorite sports. I love basketball, football, and ping pong but right now bowling is edging for that top spot. The fact that I'm getting good makes things more enjoyable. Before when I sucked I hated it cuz everyone was better than me. Now I'm runnin' with the big boys and havin' a blast. I'm ultra competitive so if I'm not doing good, then I'm not having a good time.
Yesterday was my Lola's B-day. She had to spend her B-day in the hospital. She's been in there since last Thursday. For the past 2 weeks she was in pretty bad shape. She was struggling. My Mom had to force her to go to the hospital. She didn't even want to go. I guess that's where I get it from cuz I hate going to the doctor until it gets really bad. But yeah, I hope and pray that she gets better. When we visited her she looked to be in better shape and in better spirits.
