In 10th grade, I decided to drill a hole in one of them Bicentennial quarters. You know, the one with the drummer one the back. Well yeah, I turned it into a necklace. I did that to 6 of them. And I gave one to each of my closest friends. We all wore it for a little while. They probably wore it for a couple weeks. I wore mine for 6 years. There's a story behind that....
I happened to be vigorously studying the art of drumming around that time and I was starting to develop my own style. Finding myself, so to say. And the better I got, the more I pushed the outside world away. I guess you can say I was "in love". Playing the drums was the only thing that mattered to me. I practiced all the time. I was air drumming all the time. And I couldn't wait to get home and hop on my drumset. It was a feeling of being carefree, oblivious to everything and totally happy. I felt like a child again.
That necklace I made, I said I'd wear it until I found true love. A love greater than my passion for drums. The love you can only get from another person. For 6 years I wore that necklace. I had a green stain on my chest from the combination of metal and sweat. That stain was a reminder that love was just around the corner, a few inches away. My heart.
6 years of soul searching, 6 years of patiently waiting and things began to unfold before my very eyes. After my 2nd stint with my ex girlfriend, I felt like love wasn't a card that was in my hand. The hand that I got dealt was a pretty shitty hand. This whole love game was one I was never good at playing. It was time to fold. I lost the majority of my money, aka my pride, and I didn't want to go home empty handed so I left with the whatever I had remaining.
I stopped wearing that necklace. Not because I found true love, but because I didn't think it existed anymore. At least not for me. I don't even play drums anymore. That feeling of happiness was lost. I began to take up all the activities I could to keep me busy and help me forget all that I've left behind. There's this saying that "If you love something, let it go. And if it comes back, then it was meant to be." I don't really believe in that shiite because it's a load of crap. Someone made that up to make someone else feel better. Suck it up and walk it off. Get over it and move on with your life.
Moving on with my life, my heart was a fool and I left it behind. Excess baggage. Dead weight.
Fast forward 3 years later, aka the present time, and I dug that necklace out of this box in my room last Sunday. Recent events have led me think about the game again. The game of love. No, I'm not talking about this past Saturday at the Padres game. Don't get it twisted. So I got the necklace out and the chain was broken. I found some spare parts from another chain and fixed it.
I'm starting to believe in love again. I was talking to this lady the other day and she asked me why I didn't have a girlfriend. I told her I'm busy with my other projects/work that I don't have time. She said "Oh c'mon. That wouldn't stop you." So I said I was really picky. A girl needs to have certain things for me to consider her. And she said "You need to lower your expectations. Nobody's perfect." And then she mentioned a girl's name and asked why I don't go for her? I said I already tried and it didn't work. There wasn't that chemistry. I didn't feel it. And then she asked me "What qualities are you looking for?" So I told her my criteria. After I told her, she mentioned another girl's name and asked "What about her?" I laughed right when she said her name. Not for the reasons you're thinking, but because when she asked me of the qualities I was looking for, I totally described this girl. I have been spending time with her lately and it never really crossed my mind. I mean, I'm a dude and I think about sexing her up all the time, but I never really thought of her as a girlfriend.
When I start wearing my necklace again, she'll be the first option.
The other day at dinner, I told my Mom I didn't want to be an engineer. She is very proud that I finished college, got a degree and got a well paying job. Now that I've done that, I told her I want to do something for me. Something that will make me happy. She asked me what I wanted to do then? I told her maybe music or photography or graphic design. Maybe even a pharmacist. No joke. But yeah, she said to go ahead. I guess I'm now capable of supporting myself so she didn't shoot me down. Before, whenever I mentioned doing something other than engineering, she would immediately blow it off and talk about how can I support a family or myself with that type of job.
My friend called me the other day and asked if I wanted to grab some pho. It's been a long while since I hung out with this guy. So we grabbed pho and shot the shit and talked like we never missed a beat. I love hanging out with friends that I haven't seen in a while and pick up right where we left off, without it feeling like it's been forever since the last time we did this. And after pho, we cruised around and ended up at Guitar Center and just jammed there for a while. I hate going to Guitar Center cuz I always want to buy something. Hahahahaha. And after Guitar Center, I dunno if we saw a billboard or heard it on the radio, but we were on our way to grab some KFC. The grilled chicken. Keep in mind we just had pho not too long ago. Hahahahahaha. But on our way to get KFC, our other friend hit us up so we cruised over to get him before KFC. But instead he suggested we go to a sit down restaurant where can have beer. So we ended up at Chili's and ate chicken there and drank beer and the waitress suckered us into getting Margaritas too. She wasn't that cute but she had a great personality so every time she came over, we would talk to her for like 10 mins and keep her from doing her job. I even offered to buy her some drinks. Hahahahaha.
Damn, I miss doing random things with good friends. Screw growing up.
I haven't seen my chin in 2 years. I can now see it again.
This past Saturday I went to the Padres game with a lady friend. And as predicted, things got pretty damn wild. Hahahahaha. But I can honestly say this is the most fun I've ever had when spending time alone with a lady friend. No offense to any other lady that I've gone out with but this one was just insane. Ok, so the Padres lost but that didn't ruin any of the fun.
Well, here's how the night started off:
Went to her place to pick her up. She gave me a mini-tour. She just moved in last month so there was barely any furniture. Met her roommate Buttercup. It's a dog. Hahahaha. She's got a pretty sweet joint. It's just hard to find parking there.
So we listened to the Lakers game on the way to the stadium. She's a huuuuuuuge Lakers fan, as am I. So she knows all the inside scoops all the time. That's a plus in my book. So we get to the stadium and after I found parking, I busted out with a lil' surprise for the both of us. A couple 40's of Arrogant Bastard. Hahahahaha. This girl is 5 ft. tall, 89 lbs. but she downed the whole thing in under 20 mins. Another plus. Hahahahaha. After downing it, I told her I was starting to feel it cuz I was sweating. And she called me a little bitch for complaining. But then a few moments later she said she was starting to feel it too, cuz her tongue goes numb and that's how she knows it's kickin' in.
So we got to our seats, right on the first base line, and there was this "couple" sitting in front of us. She quickly turns to me and asks "Lesbian or Cancer Survivor?" I glanced at them again and I start cracking up and I say "Both!" Hahahahahahaha. I could already tell this was gonna be a good night. And throughout the first inning, she's yelling things at the top of her lungs like "Aye batta, batta!" or "You suuuuuuck!". It was awesome.
2nd inning, we decide to get some food. We went for the 5 for 5 deal. The line for that felt like an hour. Damn. But it was a damn good deal. We ended up getting the deal with beer, Mich Ultra to be exact. Not Michelob Ultra, just Mich Ultra. She told me a story about Mich Ultra, and that'll have to be another blog, but that's why we got it. She ended up getting a veggie dog for some damn reason. I think she was trying to impress me since she knew I was on the vegan diet. I got the regular dog and it was great. About 3/4 of the way done with her veggie dog, she turned to me and said "This is horrible. I dunno why I got a veggie dog". Hahahahaha.
Later on in the game, there was this girl walking down the stairs and she turns to me and says "Look at the tits on that one!" and I turned and instantly felt like I was in water. On a boat of some sort. Hahahahaha. +1pt. I looked at her and said "You got a good eye!". And she said to me, "I appreciate aesthetics."
She likes to play this game called Fat or Pregnant. Sometime during the night, there was this girl wearing a tight blue tank top sitting a couple rows to the left of us and she stuff her cell into her bra. And my lady friend saw this happen and asked me "fat or pregnant?" I looked at the girl in the blue tanktop and said "Fat!!!!" She disagreed with me and said "Really? I think she's pregnant." And then I said to her, "You know how I know she's not pregnant? Look at the dude next to her. He's a brotha. And the brothas like their ladies chunky!" And we started crackin' up for a good 5 mins. "So true!" Hahahahahaha.
So the Padres were losing really bad and we were still yelling at the top of our lungs. "Try hitting the ball, for God's sake!" And one of the lesbians sitting in front us stood up and asked my lady friend to calm down. Hahahahaha. Another +1pt. I knew we would piss people off. And the best thing about it.....we don't care.
Some things I learned this night: This girl is one the biggest shit talkers in the world. She speaks her mind. No hesitation. Hahahaha. She is one of the hardest workers I've ever met. Her determination is unmatched. Work hard, play harder. She loves her beer. She's horrible with directions. She's a control freak. And the girl is rich. Could this be my sugar momma? Hahahaha.
2 crazy people + beer + a hostile environment = a damn good time! I seriously have never had this much fun with a girl before. I'm actually starting to believe in love again. I'm not saying she's the one, but I'm saying that there might be one out there after all.
There were a lot more things said and done that night but that will remain between the two of us. It's not like it was just some random whore I met in a club and I'll tell all my friends about it. I just had a really good time and that's all that matters. I just hope she had as good of a time as I did and maybe we can continue the good times. (:
On a side note, I slept at 5am this morning and woke up at 7. This day is gonna hurt...
So for the past week or more, I've been waking up before my alarm goes off. I set my alarm for 630am and no matter what time I sleep, I seem to be waking up before it goes off. I find that to be very strange. I guess my body is in a rhythm and starting to do things on it's own. That could possibly be a good thing.
I've been sick but I've been sweating it out so I think that's been helping me stay on top of things. My Mom was out of commission for a while and My bro was too. I thought I'd end up like them but I guess this running thing is keeping me somewhat strong.
I tried to go up (or technically down) a gauge but my ear wasn't having it. The last time I forced a gauge change, my lobe started to swell and I could feel the blood pulsating inside. It ended up being a bloody mess. I'll wait a couple more weeks. I'm at a 10g and hoping to go to an 8g soon. I told myself that I would stop at 4g but I like the way 0g looks. We'll see how I feel when I get to 4g.
There are some goods in North Park. Me and my cousins had dinner there last night and we sat outside while we ate and there were some lookers that passed by. One of my younger cousins is very awkward with girls. So I've been trying to show him some tips. And last night, my other cousin noticed him doing things he normally doesn't do and said "I can see you've been hangin' out with Kuya Erick". Hahahahaha.
Hopefully it doesn't rain tomorrow. I'm stoked for the Padres game. And getting to hang with the crazy girl. Hello crazy girl. (:
So I'm taking this girl out on Saturday night. I actually met her through a friend. And at the time, she was dating that friend of mine. Well, they're no longer together and I always thought she was cute. So I'm swoopin' on in. Muahahahaha
Today I ran into that friend and I was gonna tell him that I'm gonna take out his ex. But he was lookin' at me like he already knew. So right when I got to him, the first thing he says is "So I heard you're goin' out with ________ this Saturday?"
So I said "Yeah, is that cool with you? I know you guys aren't together anymore but I don't want you being all pissed when you find out later on."
"No no, it's fine. She texted me the other day telling me. I dunno why she would tell me?"
Yesterday, Popeyes was having some special where there were 8 pcs for $4.99. I really wanted some chicken but I said I wouldn't eat any meat unless there was a family party, a friends b-day, or if I'm on a date. Well, yesterday I got home and my Mom told me that it was my cousin's 14th b-day. You already know what that means. Yup, it was delicious.
You know what I noticed? I cut my nails every week, but I cut my toe nails maybe every other month. No, they don't get grotesquely long. They just don't grow fast. I dunno. I was sitting indian style on the couch last night and my finger just happened to start fiddling with my toes and I noticed that my toe nails were still short and I tried to remember the last time I cut them. It's probably been 3 weeks or so.
Tonight, there's some shiite goin down @ C7 in downtown. I don't think imma roll. The last time I went there, some stupid stuff happened. And it wasn't the first time either. So based on results, I'm not gonna waste my time. Plus it's NBA playoffs. I love the first round. It's like a game every night. More like 2 or 3 games every night.
I was watching CMT last night and I watched Sugarland @ Summerfest '07. I knew every song from the "Enjoy The Ride" album back in '07 so it was a pleasant delight to see that concert on. Oh, and I love Jennifer Nettles, the lead singer for Sugarland. I just love that southern twang she has when she speaks/sings. She's not the hottest girl in the world, not even close, but I'm turned on by the way she carries herself. She's probably a 6 but her confidence bumps her up to an 8.5.
Monday morning, I bought 12 bananas. Today I have 6 left. Let's hope I can finish them before the end of the week.
I'm lagging on the stuff I wanna mail out. I'm just being lazy. But I'll get to it.
My Mom was sick, my Sister was sick, My Dad was sick, and my Bro was sick....now I'm starting to feel it too. Damn me. I felt dizzy and light headed the other day. Now I have a sore throat.
I bought 2 tickets to the Padres game this Saturday. Me and some crazy girl. She already predicts that everyone around us will hate us by the end of the game. We're gonna be the "crazy, annoying drunks" at the game. I think she's gonna be right. Hahahahaha. And since I said I can eat meat on "Family parties, friends b-days, and dates", I plan on feasting on meat that day.
Last night I went to bed a little before 8pm. I was kinda hurting. My head was spinning. I was washing dishes after dinner and then for a split second, the room started to turn on me. I wanted to work on the photobooth pix from Friday night at 923 but they can wait another day. So I tried to sleep. I kept waking up every few hours. And everytime I'd wake up, I'd be soaked in sweat. I wasn't even sleeping on my bed. It was my sister's bed. hahahaha. She'll have a surprise when she comes back home. My room was too hot so I decided to sleep in my sister's room. I do that from time to time. I dunno why my room is so hot.
I bought some new conditioner yesterday. It seems like everything I do to my hair doesn't work. My hair is extra dry all the time. At least the ends are. And then the roots are extra oily. I think it's cuz I sweat so much that it takes all the moisture away from the ends and all the sweat gets absorbed in the roots. I dunno....someone with hair, help me out here.
Shanel wrote a blog. I think it's been 2 years since her last post. Hahahahaha.
This weekend was a damn good one. Thank you to everyone who came out Friday night to support 9five. We didn't expect the turnout to be that good. The photobooth was crazy. At the end of the night, there was close to 3000 pix. I wanna give a shout out to my favorite engineer for coming that night. It really made my night that you were there. 143. (: You got mail coming.
I'm back to not eating meat. Family parties, friends b-days, and dates are the exception though. But I am eating seafood.
I slept for maybe 2 hours last night/this morning. It was too damn hot. It was so hot yesterday that I had to shave. Yeah, shave. Take a wild guess as to what I shaved. Hahahahaha. Don't think anything dirty.
B-ball with the cousins tonight and NBA playoffs. I love it.
Last night I came up on $172. It was the final night of bowling league and we got 3rd place. 3rd place got $55. The team that had the highest scratch score for the season got $55. The person that got the highest scratch score for the season got $40. And I forget what the other $22 was for. But yeah, I wasn't expecting to get that much money. (:
So in 2 weeks, summer bowling league starts. Who wants to join? The rest of my team is taking the summer off. I need to form a new team.
My friend Norey recently started a food blog. It's awesome!!!! Check it out when you get a chance http://tastersdelight.tumblr.com/ She's always taken pix of food so it was the next logical step. (:
The past 2 days have been insane. At the stroke of midnight on Sat (or should I say Sun), me and Bobby were at Super Sergios to order some carne asada fries. Hahahahaha. I was that eager to eat something uber delicious. So I tried to down a whole plate by myself but the carne asada won. And then during Easter day, I scarfed down some Churches Chicken, Taco Bell tacos, and my Mom's homemade Nilaga. All that meat gave me a "meat headache". It's very similar to an ice cream headache.
I couldn't sleep that night because of all the carnivorous treats. I think I went to bed around 4am. And then I woke up at 630am. So 2 and a half hours of sleep and then work. Surprisingly, I wasn't that tired. Maybe the meat has special powers? Hahahahaha.
Yesterday I had chicken curry, bbq pork, and longonisa for lunch. And then I had pho for dinner. I think I might overdose if I don't cut back. I already feel like I gained 5 lbs in 2 days. I said I'd go on a vegetarian diet starting next Monday. It might have to start earlier. Hahahaha.
I decided to cruise out last night to downtown for an event Hundred Percent was throwing. It was over at C7, formerly known as Submission which was formerly Jade. There were a bunch of name changes for a reason. And last night was one of the reasons. It was pure BOLSHLEVIKS!!!!!!
We got there early to make sure everything got set up properly. Everything was goin ok until about 10pm, which is pretty damn early still. And then the place decides to stop letting anyone in and they kicked everyone out. We were outside having business discussions when all this occurred. Everyone that was inside was now just chillin' outside. I guess they told them it was a fire drill or something? BOLSHLEVIKS!!!!!!!!
What really happened, or what we were told, was that an undercover cop came to the place and they were selling liquor with a jacked up liquor license. So they had to shut the whole place down and take the liquor off the shelves and store them in the back. I swear, there's someone out there making sure we get screwed every time. We got people hatin' on us for no damn reason.
And this was my first night out in a long time. I was hoping to have fun, but this whole ordeal killed it for me. FML.
Yesterday I got a card in the mail. Like real mail. Not email. Hahahaha. It was from my favorite engineer. I love her to death and I was excited to see mail from her when I got home. My bro was standing over my shoulder watching me open it up to see what it was. Hahahaha. Getting mail is like X-mas to me. Real mail, not like credit card bills or junk mail. Mail from people I know. Or even packages. I love it when packages arrive even though I know what's in it cuz I ordered it. But the excitement of opening it up gets me all hyped up every time.
For anyone who's sent me mail recently, I plan on sending something back just for fun. I hope the excitement you give to me will carry over onto to you. (:
I went to bed at 11pm last night. I just wanted to see what would happen if I got 8 hours of sleep. Well......I didn't find out. I woke up this morning at 3am. I guess I'm just so used to sleeping 4-5 hours a night and my body just decided to wake up. I normally sleep around 1-2am and wake up around 6ish. Damn me.
I was watching youtube yesterday and I watched some wrestling clips. It was clips of all the mess ups and accidents that happen in wrestling. And then I had a dream about watching wrestling and in the match, one of the dudes arm gets ripped off. It was not pretty. I need to stop watching that kind of stuff. I really don't like seeing people get hurt.
On another note, on my way home from bowling I saw an accident. I didn't actually see it occur but I arrived at the scene maybe a minute right after it happened. The people were getting out of their cars and starting to take pictures of the mess and talk to each other and what not. There were witnesses pulled over and people discussing what happened so I left. It was at the stoplight right by my house.
Speaking of bowling, we are officially out of first place. If we won 4 games last night, we would have been in contention. But we only won 2. There's 4 games left and we're 6 behind. And it doesn't help that I bowled horrible. The first game was a 187. The 2nd was 161. And the 3rd was a 137. Not good. If I was in the 180's in all 3 games, we would of had a chance. Next week is the last week so I guess we're bowling for 3rd place. But I did get the top score for the season (not unless someone tops me next week) so I'm happy about that. (:
I finally did my taxes last night. I'm gettin' back around 800 smackeroos. Not bad.
I washed my truck on Sunday. Does anyone think it'll rain this week? Hahahaha. For reals, though. It might rain this week.
My laptop is officially dying. It takes about 20 minutes to boot up. I think the motherboard is burnt out. It was 9 good years and it's time to move on. I've been holding off on getting a MacBook Pro since I had a perfectly fine, functioning laptop already. Now that perfectly fine, functioning laptop is no longer perfectly fine and functioning. But I don't think imma buy that MacBook yet since I got some bills to take care of.
I was reading through my old Xanga last night and it's pretty funny. Did I really think that before? I was gay. Hahahahaha.
I ate meat this weekend!!!! But I said from the get-go that I would when my Lola's death anniversary was coming around, so it's no surprise. But it felt sooooooooo good. I got a taste of the forbidden fruit/meat and now I want more. I'm craving it. I spent so much time to make myself strong and now I'm back to square one. Hahahahaha. But it was well worth it. I started the day off by not eating meat cuz I was so used to it. But when they started the prayer, I felt like it was ok to eat meat and I dove right in. The first bite was heaven. The texture of meat was something I haven't felt in what seemed like a year. Hahahahaha. I don't even think I ate that much but the meat filled me up differently. My stomach felt all huuuuuuuuge after my first plate. I dunno if my stomach shrank or if the meat was magically expanding after it passed through my intestines.
The past two weekends have been a blast because I got to spend it with my family. My cousins that don't live in SD are just crazy and I like that. It brings my craziness level up a notch when I'm with them. Hahahahaha. I wish we all lived close to each so we could kick it all the time.
