Yesterday Michelle came to the tailgate and she brought brownies and banana bread (that she baked) and cucumbers and carrots (that she sliced). I know she asked me if I wanted her to make anything and I said all the stuff above but I didn't think she'd actually do it. It just shows me that she cares. I got on her case cuz she only hits me up when she needs something and I'm sure she realized it was the truth. I mean, I'll call her just to to say hi and talk or whatever. She calls me and asks me to help her with something or if I could take her somewhere and stuff like that. I don't appreciate that. I feel used. But she made up for it.
The past 4 have been intense. It was an adventure nonetheless. It starts off like this:
Thurs: We worked an 18+ event over @ Belo. The girls there were gettin' buck wild. The way they were dancing had me at 100%. I ended up dancing with a few of them. I love them fresh. Hahahaha. They were sober as shiite and they just didn't give a damn who they were dancing with. Winding and grinding all night long.
Fri: We worked over at Thin and that place wasn't really poppin' so we bounced after a lil' bit and took off for Visions. I aint never been there before so I didn't know what to expect from that place. The managers were flippin' out cuz I was gonna take pix in there. It seems like they aint never had nobody come in there and take pix. They gave us the royal treatment. Hahahahaha. And all the people there were trippin' out too cuz they were all like "Since when did Visions hire photographers?" But yeah, I met this one chick who slammin' from head to toe. And she was all about pictures. So we went off to the corner and had a lil' photoshoot sessions with her and her friend. I woulda rated her an 8.5........in the dark. LOL. When I got home and looked at the pix, she wasn't as slammin as I thought. I started dancing with her after we took pix and my buddy danced with her friend. He thought he was taking one for the team so I could get mine, but it ended up me taking one for the team cuz we both thought my chick was better but the pix prove that his chick ended up being the good one. LOL.
Sat: In the morning I woke up to find a bunch of sequins on my bedroom floor. I was all wondering where the hell it came from. And then I started going through all the pix from the night before and noticed the chick I was dancing with had a bunch of sequins on her dress. I guess we were grinding a lil' too hard and me being at 100% knocked all them sequins off her dress. Hahahahaha.
But on Sat night we worked at Belo and Sin. Belo was crackin'. The place was gettin' packed and it wasn't even 11pm yet. That was a good sign. When we went to Sin, I ran into my ex-girlfriend and it was weird cuz usually my mind starts thinking all these thoughts of when we were together whenever I see her. But this time I was cool about it. I just saw her and said hi and that was it. I didn't care too much for her. I didn't see her for the rest of the night. And we ended up going back to Belo and havin' a good time. Slammin' hunnies left and right. It's a sign that school is almost back in session. They wanna party hard before it's time to hit the books.
Sun: Esther had us come over to Bong's place and she cooked for us. She made fish tacos and it was the most delicious fish tacos that I've ever had. I ate waaay more than I should have but she said she invited us over cuz we know how to eat and she made a grip of food. By the end of the night, we finished it all. Me and Bong also played a bunch of songs in his garage and we ended up recording one of them. It's Cupid by 112. It's one of my favorite songs to play on guitar.
Upcoming week:
Mon: Tonight is the Chargers game so I'll be there.
Tues: Bowling league championships. We're playing for 1st place. Wish us luck.
Wed: Out with Karmen.
Thurs: Another 18+ event @ Belo
Fri: Another night in Downtown
Sat: More nights in Downtown.
Sun: BBQ in San Marcos, and then Downtown.
This is like 10 straight days of commitments. No sleep. Sleep is for the weak anyways. Hahahaha.
Somehow the topic of weddings came up last night when I was with the fellas. Wait, I remember how it came up. We were listening to some songs and we pondered about how tight it would be to have an actual live band in a wedding since everybody does DJ's nowadays. We're all hoping that Ramon will hire an 80's band for his wedding. If the guy can schedule a wedding DURING football season(and ruin a chance of a lifetime to go to London), he sure as hell won't have a live band. It just goes to show his logic (or his lack of power in the relationship). Hahahahaha. But yeah, I told the fellas IF or WHEN I get married, I'm gonna pull an Uncle Jesse and play that song "Forever" at my wedding. I'll hop on a piano (even though I don't know how to play that well) and sing my heart out to her.
Back in high school, I was at Fatima's house and we learned how to play "Forever". We listened to that song for days to try and figure it out. I learned it on guitar and she figured out the piano part. I kinda remember the chords so I can figure out how to play the piano part the way Uncle Jesse played it. And don't ask me why I was at Fatima's house. Hahahahaha.
I played basketball last night even though my legs are sore as shiite. It hurt at first but after a while my muscles warmed up and I felt good.
I really love those Under Armour type performance shirts cuz they work. I run on my lunch breaks at work and I would feel all icky from my sweat but those performance shirts keep me feeling cool and the sweat doesn't stick to my body. I do bring a change of clothes but the sweat would just stay on me even after I would wipe it off. With these shirts, I wipe it and it's gone.
Me and my cousins have been playing basketball 3 nights a week and we're in bowling league and we play table tennis and we started the Madden 09 title shots. I have my wrestling belt and we play tournament style to see who is worthy of being called the Madden champ. My cousin Nate Dogg won the title this past weekend. I get first crack to dethrone him. I doubt I can beat him cuz I'm not 15 and I don't play video games all day anymore. Hahahaha. It feels good to do stuff with my family cuz we're all ultra competitive and it makes things interesting. We all get pushed to the limits, which makes us all give our best every time. I like that.
Bowling league last night was tough. My calves were sore as shiite yesterday and I couldn't get any power in my throw. I'm glad Richard carried me for the first 2 games. My calves loosened up by the third game and I bowled a 198. We ended up winning all 4 games and we secured our 2nd place spot. Next Tuesday is the last day aka The Championship Match. We get to play the 1st place team, my cousin. The first time we played them this season, we got owned on. That was when I was still bowling a 130 average. That was ages ago. For the past month I've been bowling over 170. It's gonna be an exciting match. The team we're gonna play against were originally our teammates. It was supposed to be 4 person teams but not enough people signed up so we split all the teams. Now the team that got split up will face each other for 1st. This is like the stuff movies are made of. I imagine my team down by a grip of pins and a miraculous comeback sends it into sudden death. And in overtime we go neck and neck but in the 10th frame one little mistake by the other team allows us to win by 1 pin.
I'm so hyped up about this Championship match that I'm signing up for the Winter bowling league. The fact that I've gotten alot better gives me confidence. Winter league is a money league. We play for money. That's where the serious bowlers are. My average was around 130 entering this league. Exiting this league, I'm now in the 160's. My goal was to break 200 last year but now, it aint no big thing when I break 200. 250 is now my goal.
I've been running everyday for the past month and today my calves are sore. This is the first time they are sore. I've had my hamstrings sore but not my calves. I'm wondering what I did differently.
I hate waking up to a calf cramp. It's one of the worst feelings in the world. That didn't happen this morning but the first step I took when I got out of bed almost didn't happen. Hahahahaha. My leg almost gave out on me.
I'm debating if I should run today or just walk, since I do have bowling league tonight and we're still in contention for first place. I think I'll run a little and see how it feels and if my calves hold up, I'll keep running.
This weekend I got to hang out with a long lost friend. He called me up last week to invite me to his daughter's birthday. I wasn't planning on going since I had some family birthdays to attend also but that got moved so I decided to cruise on by. And I'm glad I did. I haven't hung out with this guy in so long. To be honest, I'm very bitter that he isn't around us anymore. I know he has his priorities with his family and whatever but we've known each other since we were 3 years old. We grew up together and went through a lot of tough times together. I would just like to see the effort to hang out or even a random phone call to just shoot some shiite.
But yeah, I'm really glad that I got to see him this weekend. I'm looking forward to more good times with the friends.
My watch is becoming loose. I just noticed that yesterday. Usually my watch is snug around my wrist but now it jiggles around. What's also weird is that no hair grows around the part where my watch is. I have like a bald spot on my arm that's a perfect line. It doesn't help that I have a slight watch tan so it points it out even more. Hahahahaha. I guess it's from the watch rubbing on my wrist and pulling the hairs off or something. That's the only explanation I can think of. Or the constant pressure of the watch against my wrist blocks the hair from coming out of the skin.
I've been running everday for maybe 3 weeks now. Before I would dread the thought of having to run but now I find myself wanting to run. It's starting to become fun. I'm setting goals for myself. Before I set a time limit for myself. Now it's distance without stopping. I noticed that if I don't look ahead and just watch the ground as I run, I tend to be able to run farther. I dunno, I guess it's seeing the goal that makes me more tired. If I can see it, then I know I'm that close but I'm all super winded. If I just watch the ground and my footsteps, I'm at the goal before I even know it. I like that. So I've been watching the ground more that looking up. It's a good thing that I run when there are no people around. Hahahahaha. Or else I might run into them when I'm not looking forward.
I'm glad that I finally have some friends who blog.....and get this, on a regular basis. I mean, blogs shouldn't matter that much but it feels good to read about what's going on with my friends since I don't get to see them on a regular basis. I know my blogs don't exactly highlight my days or anything (at least not this one) and that's why only a select few know about this one.
I'm also glad it's football season, which is where I usually pack on a few pounds every year from all the tailgating we do. We'll see how good I can be with my food project still underway. I think I did pretty good this past weekend with my eating at the tailgate. I didn't overdo it and I felt satisfied with the amount I ate.
Our new seats for the season are pretty damn spectacular. We got west endzone seats and I enjoy standing up throughout the majority of the game. It makes me feel like I'm a part of the action or something. I dunno. Hahahaha. It's better than sitting down. that's it.
We, as in me and Joel, also discussed that my cousin and Ramon have officially been cut from our crew since they decided to ditch us the last game. Hahahahahaha. SCISSORS!!!!!!!!! BAND-AIDS!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lately I've been sleeping a lot more than usual. This is alarming to me. I normally sleep around 5 hours a night. But for the past week or longer, I've been sleeping for 8-10 hours a night. I guess I can blame it on me working out more often and changing what I'm eating.
I do feel different emotionally. I think I've calmed down a little bit. I'm more relaxed than I ever was. But I'm also more sensitive than I normally am. Maybe before I stopped caring cuz I was headed nowhere but now that I'm making changes and starting to make some sort of progress, my feelings are more prevalent. I was at rock bottom and I had nowhere to go but up. Now I have a little bit to lose and I'm a little scared. Change is not something I'm good at.
It's 1:30 am and I just got done talking with her again. She told me her fears and the lack of sleep it causes. All her thoughts and anxiety cause endless nights. She told me she wanted to shut everyone out and I told her I wanted to shut her out too, just to make the situation easier. But we both can't do it. It's just too hard.
And she called me out on a lot of the things that I do. She told me to be a good guy, to do the right thing even after she's gone. Treat every girl right, and with respect. She said she can see the good in me but I have to stop portraying myself in a different light. She's seen the real me and she wants me to make everyone aware of who/what I am really am.
I was kinda getting pissed off at all the things she was callin' me out on, but I know she's right. And I can't change overnight. It's a tough process to get these habits out of my system.
I know at the end of the day, I'm gonna thank her for helping me become a better person. Live, learn, love.
I'm growing fond of the new girl. I've been talking to her more and more. I keep "accidentally" running into her. Hahahahaha. And she's been singing with me on our breaks. I'll bust out the guitar and go in the hall and then she'll be grabbing some coffee or something and she would hear me and stop and listen. And if she knows the song I'm playing, she'll sing along with me. I like that. I like a girl who's not afraid to sing.
Today, we were singing that BBMak song "Back Here" and we were staring at each other in the eyes while singing the words. I felt a connection but I couldn't help but laugh cuz she actually knew all the words and I actually knew how to play the song. Hahahahahaha.
