She makes me feel good about myself. Being around her gives me a sense of confidence. I want to be able to reciprocate those feelings without getting my intentions mixed up. I don't know if it's me falling for her or if it's me just being lonely and accepting anything that comes within arms reach. It could be a combination of both. All I know is that I don't want to mess things up and say something that might drive her away. We are both in a state where we aren't sure what to expect. She probably isn't looking for anything right now but sometimes the best things in life are things that you come across by accident. I don't want to get my hopes up and have them come shatterring down like they usually do. I should be used to it by now, but it still hurts everytime it happens. Sometimes I wish I never met her and my life would be all smooth and dandy without me thinking about her all the time. But if not her, it'll be someone else and I'll still have these feelings. Also, I'm glad she's in my life because she teaches me things that I never would have wanted to learn. I'm becoming a better man and if love doesn't bloom, I'll come out of this experience knowing that you can have everything but the girl and still be happy. It doesn't take two people to love.....it takes one. Yourself.
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